Rantings of an over-worked,selfish Pakistani chick

Change of address

2007-07-31T00:42:00.000+04:00

ive moved. come see me here: rantingsofapakichick.wordpress.com

Insaneness

2007-07-18T10:33:00.000+04:00

its 10:35 am. ive just finished a bowl of cornflakes, the weather outside is beautiful. atleast thts what it looks like. today is one of those days when its sunny and cloudy all at once. and i smell nihari. which is completely impossible but i swear i do and right now i want a big plate of the fantastic stuff with a hot crisp tandoori roti and lots of lemons!

also, blogger thinks this is post is the 101th.

Eye Candy-Josh Duhamel

2007-07-16T00:31:00.000+04:00

he's fergie's bf. need i say more!!

lots of random fluffy bits

2007-07-16T00:06:00.000+04:00

im as tired as the scatterbrained title! so im going to do bullets of stuff going through my fluffy bits now.

somehow emraan hashmi looks cute with long hair. i know, very ewww! something is definitely wrong here...maybe im into long haired dudes. revelation?
facebook could be used as a weapon of mass destruction. brain (of pinky and the brain) could wreak havoc with it.
there are plenty of cute guys in dubai; just not pakistani ones. facebook research!
saw the notebook yesterday. rather streamed it. was up till 3 am. im in love with noah or (rather ryan gosling as noah calhoun)!! allah mian mera noah kab aaiye ga?
im most definitely getting a bright red suzuki jimny; the 2007 model. any thoughts, opnions and/or ghastly experiences are most welcome! if you are going to tell me it looks like a dabba i know already, mum and alta clued me into that fact! km jealous yet??
i miss my very irritating baby brother so much its seems hilarious at times! here i was, all prepared to send him off into the big bad world to learn important life leasons and im already wishin he'll come home now. how these four years will go by... :(
i was supposed to be in bed by 10:20 and its 12:20 :( :(

bas ab kay liye itna hi, baqi ki khabrein kaal raat ko! ;)

TFL the ghost and other interesting tales

2007-07-08T23:07:00.000+04:00

either its me or its everyone else, but something is definitely wrong! for eg a couple of hours ago i was waiting for the elevator. as is the norm i was standing beside it rather than in front of it; the two guys in it got some how spooked when they saw me standing there as in they did the whole double take, hand-on-heart routine! now how they took me to be a ghost at 10 pm in a bright red t-shirt is completely beyond me!! this is one of the many strange things going on lately. stranger still is the fact that work has doubled and still i dont feel overwhelmed; maybe its the amazing support im getting from everyone around me or the fact that I was much too apprehensive before taking these responsibilities over that now the sheer simplicity is freaking me out :(

maybe life is moving a bit too fast. yes, i think tht is it. with everything going from good to better, alhumdullilah, life has kind of stumped me i think. i am used to dealing with bad news; its this whole lot of good stuff coming in from all sides which i guess im having trouble dealing with (alhumdullilah times infinity). i know it sounds very weird, and almost nashukrapana but tht is the truth.

now all i can think of is not jinxing it and letting it steer me in the right direction.

now for the interesting tales; if the above was not enough :P

the fact that i got an iron in the company raffle was taken to be a sign of my not ironing my clothes!

i made the worlds biggest and stupidest wordo (thts typo for when you say something wrong). it was soo damn embarrassing that i dare not repeat it hear. needless to say, i am not sure i will ever hear the end of it.

most interesting of all would be that ive given up sugar in my coffee :P

the yuckiest of all would be that i strongly suspect some sort of sewage pipe runs through my air conditioning ducts which is stinking up my place *tearing my hair out in frustration*

the most interesting could be that i managed to, rather successfully, play the bitch and take the guy who used to stare in college to not even glancing my way! hehe!! oddly or rather fittingly i get attention from only the very wrong people; and i enjoy chasing them off ;)

thts about all thts been happening in my mundane life. i leave you with some pics i took.

TFL: License to drive muahahahahahahaaaaaa!!! evil grin

2007-07-02T23:09:00.000+04:00

I got it today!!! it was my second attempt and alhamdulilah i passed.

thts all i have energy for today; last week was busy and in comparison this and the next two weeks will be insanely so, both workwise as well as socially. i hate it when this happens!! everything is just bunched together so i hardly have any energy to enjoy things at all! and then come weeks of nothing!! arghh! anyhow cant change anything there, so will be grateful for these few days.

in my very sleepy state im just going to reply to comments here ;)
@karachiite and miss specs: girls im sorry, didnt have the time to reply to the comments or even comment on your blogs! i most definately will as soon as life gets back on track :D

@twintopaz: dude im hoping you read the previous post wrong coz it said i failed and your comment clearly was the opposite, and if you didnt read wrongly, then either you're psychic or we know each other personally. if it is the latter lemme know (drop me an email) and youll get your treat. if thts not the case, youll still get the treat, we will just have to figure out how ;)

inshallah the dsl will work on the weekend, i have quite a few blog related things to do, the link list being the most important. i apologize if i offended anyone by not linking them, my procrastination has been getting the best of me lately :(

17th June, 2007

2007-06-18T00:30:00.000+04:00

i think the image explains it all! in case it doesnt, i left work at 9:56 pm! nuff said.

i dont understand it but somehow i love it; the late nights dont bother me! infact i quite like the feeling of being the only one in the office. i love it enough to hush the little voice inside my head. the one which tells me that i should have been a librarian in a city like new york, or maybe should have owned a little cafe cum bookshop in some corner of paris.

im off to bed soon, please pray for me! the driving test is tomorrow and im certain i will fail :(

*Update: i failed :( the next one will be sometime in the first week of july.

Hmm..

2007-06-12T00:29:00.000+04:00

there has been so much going on i dont know where to begin...this will probably be very jumbled but its the best i can do in my near dead state!

the struggle for the coveted driving license is nearing its end, will know for sure on monday. please pray it goes well!

had our first real bash on friday. wasnt really a bash but as close as could be! discovered i look seriously hot in green ;) a little self praise goes a long way! was fun and went smoothly mashallah.

aunt's here, was off from work today, so signed up for shopping and rikhrofying duty. spent sometime with her and enjoyed my day off. ended up with more books! never a bad outcome.

work is stressful as of late, i think i have wayyyy too much to do in too little time! prioritizing is an art i have to perfect.

oh and i got another semi rishta thing. seriously! what is it with desi aunties??!! like anyone could be married to someone as wild as me?? anyhow thankfully abba and mama arent for it. the acca thing will serve as a beautiful excuse/tallofying thing.

km is all set and heading off to malaysia on the 24th of this month inshallah. he is part sweetheart part dickhead right now. i swear if he doesnt get his act together he can stay here and go to shitty preston with his happy happy friends and ill head off there! dude act excited! phlease!!

S, the youngest, will be done with her last practical tomorrow and from next week onwards i will have a roommate as well as someone to do the housework! well she has to earn the treats she will be getting!

and what is it with these long finger nailed dudes?? i dont mean all finger nails are long, just one, either the pinkie or the thumb. and funnily its not cultural or religious. what it is, is freaky!! can someone please explain.

oh and aerosmith was completely fantastic. was finally able to tell when someone was soo topped up they had no idea what they were doing, witnessed my first girl on girl make out session. fun times ;) but seriously it was fantastic, even though we were there since 4:30 which was much too early, we got a fantastic spot and thankfully steve tyler did not drop dead because of the heat! joe perry was awesome!!! i would totally go next time! now if only junoon came soon! km has got me way too hyped up for an event which might not even happen.

thts all i can think of right now. goodnight :)

Update

2007-06-07T01:48:00.000+04:00

ive been meaning to write for a couple of days but it just hasnt happened. i have a list of things i need to write about; inshallah this weekend.atleast my template work is done.

please let me know if you think something is not working, the readability of the blog i.e. too dark, too black, hurts your eyes etc.

till tomorrow i bid you adieu!

TFL= Tacos

2007-05-31T13:32:00.001+04:00

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable.
You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Why dont i have a boyfriend??

2007-05-31T13:27:00.000+04:00

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch
Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.
From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.
And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

Stole this from Samosa's blog. i agree with most of it but i dont have anything to hide! promise =D

and then they come

2007-05-29T23:33:00.000+04:00

i hate grey's! it bloody makes me cry and i dont need or want to cry for cristina or meredith.
thank god season 3 is over and 4 hasnt started yet.

Lyrics

2007-05-17T14:55:00.000+04:00

Today at lunch, ray, as is her habit made me laugh, alot! how did she do that? by singing the strangest of lyrics with the strongest of convictions that they belonged to one song. tht might seem a bit confusing so let me resolve the confusion. she sang

"mera joota hai japani
main hoon raja hindustani"

She was absolutely convinced both phrases belonged to the same song! when infact they dont even belong to the same era! life without ray, would be no life at all :D

Karachi- the fiasco

2007-05-17T11:52:00.000+04:00

this was an email i sent to alta after reading his post on the Karachi mayhem. click on the title to go to the post.

Just read it. Had some what similar emotions to this fiasco but not quite. It’s really brave when you say you will stay there forever when I don’t ever want to come back. Why should I? When my own country doesn’t value me, when I don’t feel safe in my own house. When I have lunatics running around outside the house shooting the innocent and punishing the civilians.

I was cooking on Saturday when the rally was being broadcasted. I didn’t hear a word of it, except the drone of Imran khan's voice, the bastard, ridiculing his country in the world's media. The fucker doesn't know how it feels when I go to the beauty salon and the lady asks me aaj karachi mein bohat danga ho gaya na?! When I never said a word to any Indian when they killed thousands in Gujarat. The bastard doesn’t know the pins and needles, the haplessness, and the worry under the i-dont-give-a-shit attitude.

Mama's comment was its a show of power, by both parties, km and abba were watching musharraf and discussing how well he had succeeded in chasing the cj out of Karachi.

Ab kiya jab sab kuch khatam ho gaya? Agar woh aata to kiya hota? Bakwas karta aur nikaljata. Maybe so many wouldn't have lost their lives, making the quality of life negative for the thousand's around them. Making someone like me scared, yet again, to visit my home, for no city will I ever belong to except Karachi, I refuse to.
Just because musharraf has zero confidence in his reelection capabilities. If the public wants him, he will be reelected. These stunts really do him no favors.
It’s highly optimistic, the rising of the silent, for that will never happen. And if it does we are too corrupt a people to let it change situations. We will kill those who rise against the authority figures, for we fear the oppressed. We will kill them and silence entire generations.

My family thinks I don’t care, that I am the least patriotic person imaginable. Just because I refuse to wear a flag on my chest on the 14th of august, because I don’t care whether our team (and not we) win or lose at cricket. What they don’t realize is that even though I love it and would never want to belong to another country, for I would lose all sense of identity and self, I would never be proud of it till the day I feel I am free within its bounds. That I will not be shackled by loons like the madrassa-e-hafsa women. How can I ever be proud of a country who has labeled its citizens terrorists, Islamists, extremists? Where women are not valued? Why do we go to press about our issues? Why never with our strengths?

I don't care because i can't. Because my caring doesn't make a difference. Because it doesn't solve any problems. Just creates more. And i have my share.

Rugby Rock

2007-05-13T10:32:00.000+04:00

need i say more?? maybe just that im going!!!!!! :D

right now its cloud 119th for me; my first concert and that too Aerosmith, what more could i ever wish for :) so even if my life is shit for the next week and a half, i couldnt give a rat's ass. that is the level of my excitement and km had better start showing all that hidden excitement coz i know its there. What more could he have wished for as a going away present than a rock concert date with his sister and her insane friends ;)

blog wise the last couple of days have been weird. ive been meaning to write plenty but have just been doing one thing as soon as i am home; watch grey's anatomy. episode after episode. its pretty unhealthy coz im up till all hours and fall asleep in the middle of an episode. its bad but soo addictive!! and to balance this ive started running again, which is good but my legs feel like someone sledge hammered them and i also joined Farah's Quran club on Facebook. that is one really good thing to come of my facebook addiction. write more when i get home. for now its time to start clocking in those hours :)

Adios Amigos!

The absolute truth!

2007-04-30T01:28:00.000+04:00

** By the way this isnt the truth, its a joke :)

The world is full of pinheads..

2007-04-30T01:13:00.000+04:00

and im completely surrounded by them!

ive had more than my share of idiots for the year please Allah mian keep the rest far far away from me lest i completely lose it! Ameen.

What happens to Ashok in the strip is what will happen to me very soon... ill go completely ballistic over some unknown person and have a total meltdown!

The joys of internet!

2007-04-24T23:42:00.000+04:00

when down in the dumps watch love actually or something similar :) its even better when you get a copy on the internet =D

a nice throughly romantic movie has the power to make me feel so warm and fuzzy! its like everything is right with the world once more =D especially one overflowing with cute guys *drool* i really dont care what hugh grant likes to do in his free time, i still think he is bloody cute. i really wanna go see music and lyrics *hint* coz ive heard its amazing and i really dont wanna go alone , did that once was not fun *double triple hint!* just incase you missed the others ray ;)

coming back to reality...work is fine, if a bit overwhelming at times, driving is shit; my ex-instructor is/was trampling on my nerves and messing with my head and common sense :( and hence she is now the ex! have asked for some else now, a guy preferably lets see how that works out. discovered the most delish perfume today, its Hermes, Eau de Merveilles, its surprizingly within budget so im thinking of getting myself a bottle or maybe ill get mum one instead of me. its about time i started spoiling her a bit rather than buying stuff for myself!

the weekend starts in two days, cannot wait.

L I F E

2007-04-23T00:46:00.001+04:00

im sleepy. but then whats new about tht?? either im pissed, sleepy or just fed up. why am i not happy?? ive been going out constantly (moving out has its benefits), laughing incessantly courtesy ray, a and Qob. its like something is missing! i have a really good job, but im not happy. i used to look forward to moving out, escaping, even when i had nothing to escape from, and now that im here...im not happy, i hate saturdays, i dont want to come back here! yet i do. im not happy, im not satisfied, yet i should be so very thankful to Allah mian, for everything coz everything makes sense, everything is in place. except me. im in limbo. and i dont like it. i was the cocky one. i knew exactly what i wanted, when i wanted and how I was going to get it. now i no longer want those things. i want stuff i shunned, pushed away, looked the other way, fought against, never accepted, cried so many tears because of, i looked down upon...and now i want them. and i cant have them! i want music, laughter, faith, i want to be surrounded by people, enveloped in noise, and smiles and warm smells and lots of love. all i am surrounded by now...is a tv and an empty cold room; hollow and quiet.

i made the bed and now i must lie in it.

Beyonce feat Shakira - Beautiful Liar

2007-04-23T00:45:00.001+04:00

i blame ray for getting me hooked on to this!

What to do when you have a cold

2007-04-09T12:24:00.000+04:00

1. Shoot yourself!
2. Shout not again, and then shoot yourself
3. take it like a woman and deal with it
4. blow your nose like a trumpet so that everyone hears, gets to know you are sick, and gets grossed out!

right now im going with number 4 and finishing boxes upon boxes of tissue paper.

if any one know of a magic cure to this, please let me know so that i can stop driving my collegues insane :) in all fairness i cant be expected to run to the ladies room whenever i have to blow my nose coz thts every three minutes ;)

Happy Birthday Sunshine!!

2007-04-09T11:19:00.000+04:00

today the littleist one in the family turns 18!! happy birthday my darling!! Have a great day today and enjoy this year =D

Stop worrying about high school politics and board marks! when they couldnt bring me, the stupidist child in the family down, they can do you no harm! so smile, let them be. just be who you are. you know we love you for you not for how many 90%s you score.

happy birthday little sister, enjoy these years for very soon you wont be a teenager any more and life will have lost its innocence, its charm, its carefree nature. very soon newton's third law will apply to all situations and you will feel too much perfection is demanded of you.

enjoy it while it lasts =D

lots of kisses

love

Apa

dekho barish ho rahi hai...

2007-04-03T02:03:00.000+04:00

its raining, its raining, its raining!! (its a song and really funny coz of the way its sung :P)

it rained quite a bit today. as usual i didnt have the camera with me :( got back around nine, went for a run and in the middle, it started to rain really hard. it was so beautiful, absolutely quiet, no one around, music and rain =D i wish tht would be the case everyday!

saw namaste london on youtube. was okay, the end wasnt included in the last clip :( but he gets the girl definately coz its a hindi movie, right :)

went out with ray and qob today, good times :) have my second driving class tomorrow.

will write more later, lots of stuff has happened, but no energy to write...

off to bed with me :)

seven wierd things about moi

2007-04-03T01:31:00.000+04:00

i got tagged by abcd law (thank god!!) i stopped at five and then remembered two more :P

i have full fleged imaginary conversations with real but unknown people, meaning they exist i just havent met them, ever. all in my head, can entertain myself for hours like this and they are probably more interesting than real conversations.
i have a thing for haircuts. ive got everything i wanted to try done, thankfully mum is patient enough to put up with it! ive had everything from a fringe to a flick to a mushroom cut (really long hair chopped off so short my neck was visible, which i also got shaved so it looked like a proper boy's mushroom cut)
my ideal man is clark gable as rhett butler.
every one ive ever had a crush on has turned out to be a complete asshole! thankfully the crush was based purely on looks which turned to dust as soon as i heard their stupid ass convos.
allah mian installed a wierd magnet in me before sending me here. i swear to god each and every wierdo i ever meet or even just pass by on the way to class, is somehow attracted to me. they stare like no tomorrow but never speak. and these are not shy indo-pak guys. these are bloody europeans. i mean if you can stare surely you can stay hello. atleast it will be less repulsive :(
nobody believes that im a pakistani. even the starbucks guy asked and did not believe the answer! why!!?? just coz im on the fairer side and can speak angreezan di zaban (english) just because all you ignorant bastards believe all pakistanis are pathan taxi drivers doesnt mean we all are! get a life and an encyclopedia while you're at it!
i am only funny when im being sarcastic/ bitchy. in a normal circumstance i can kill a joke more effectively than raid kills roaches. its that sad.

i'm quite sure i wont be on anyone's bloglist from tomorrow, but thts who i am. one big fruitcake :)

i tag alta(get off your lazy and start writing), ustani, km and ze queen of babble.

my peculiar aristrocratic title

2007-04-03T01:26:00.000+04:00

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is:
Viscountess Tfl the Unique of Pease Pottage
Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title

chalo atleast i'm a viscountess :) the rest be damned ;)

arey wah, just tried the whole thing, this is what i got

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is:
Empress The Friendly Lion the Sonorous of Chignall Duntisbourne
Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title

Tales of feet and comedians

2007-03-27T19:59:00.000+04:00

sooo tired! :( feel like doing a rip van winkle and sleeping for years. ive been at work for nearly 14 hours for the last two days, not a very god senario, i think im turning into a workaholic but do they whine as much as i do??

i think i have this thing called arch pain, i know it sounds pretty lame but hurts like shit! if i do ill have to give up heels, wht will happen to my pretty shoes then :( and wont be able to run unless i get myself some really good (read expensive) running shoes; I so donot want to spend 300 on joggers even if they are nikes.

tomorrow's going to be a long day :( but only two more days till the weekend so yayy!

dont have much to whine about so ill sleep now.

did i say i love russell peters? dont believe me, go here.

on the many idiosyncrasies in life...

2007-03-22T11:57:00.000+04:00

i am so addicted to il divo, it isnt funny. ive been listening to them repeatedly for the last two days. even as i type i have one earphone jammed in, boss doesnt seem to mind it as long as i can hear whats going on and work simultaneously.
yesterday was a day for bizzare happenings. it started with this girl from hr hugging me when i gave her some papers for her boss's sign; continued when my boss told me she was worried about me. this was said when she saw my desk which littered with all kinds of paper. to make my day, i get on the bus out side burj, it goes in to pick up people, every one gets in, doors close when someone taps me on the shoulder. i turn around to see who, its a guy i dont know but i smile thinking may be i do know him and cant remember. but then im like lemme ask, so i ask him if i know him, he goes No! and starts laughing uproariously! i mean maha freak anyone??!! thank god he did not attempt a conversation! :S

another thing which has been bugging me lately is the way people sit in the bus. its like they feel that the bus is theirs and hence they can sit in whatever way they like! i mean oj i realise you are a large person and need space especially when u r sitting on the tiny, foldup seat in the aisle but that does not mean that you can take all the space you want while i shrink against the bus side! and if it ended at that, it would have been okay but when i keep shrinking and the other person keeps taking up space, it just pisses me off!
any how, off to sleep..

My Virtual DNA

2007-03-21T10:23:00.000+04:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

Marriage and desi marriage

2007-03-15T19:18:00.000+04:00

i have been reading a lot of stuff on marriges on a variety of blogs. i seem to agree and disagree with alot of this stuff. i am strange when it comes to marriage, the ever dreaded M word. i am way too liberal in some ways and too old fashioned in others. as screwed up as that might sound!

this post is my take on stuff discussed in mezba and aisha's blog.

i think marriage, at its very core is two people who decide to live together for their entire lives. thts it. it does not have to be miserable, it should not be forced and it is not a way of life but life itself. the world over people prefer to live alone if they dont find someone they think they can live with happily. but no being desi we cant do that. why? well because log kiya kaheengaye (what will people say). these log (people) will have plenty to say whether you're a) unmarried b)engaged c) married d) spinster (a word i hate! there is no age for marriage, neither is there a right time, until the time the right person turns up!)

wikipedia defines marrige as
"A marriage is an interpersonal relationship with governmental, social, or religious recognition, usually intimate and sexual, and often created as a contract.[1] The most frequently occurring form of marriage unites a man and a woman as husband and wife"

The reasons for marriage are

"The reasons people marry vary widely, but usually include one or more of the following: the public declaration of love; the formation of a family unit; legitimizing sexual relations and procreation; legal, social and economic stability; and the education and nurturing of children."

what i couldnt find any where were the words "i hereby condemn you to a life of servitude, misery and subservience; a life of imprisonment where you may never be able to speak your mind or do as you wish."

my point is marriage isnt some anamoly which when occurs changes everything. all it should change is tht before you were alone and now there is some one to share everything; so that u are never alone; some one who you go home to; someone to count on, always. am i wrong? should it be such a drastic decision that your life is changed for ever and not only your life but who you are, the person who youve always been.

some thing else which puzzles me alot is that when you get married, in desi land, all compromises are expected to be done by the girl. the guy will continue to live his life as always but the girl will have to change everything from what she wears, what she eats, when and how she eats, whether she should work or not. why? is there something so wrong with the way you were living before? all im saying is that yes, compromises have to be made when two complete strangers (as is the case with arranged marriges) have to live together, sharing everything. but way must the girl be expected/forced to make them? shouldnt they both meet halfway?

i dont get all these wierd expectations of people. i have developed a serious distaste of marriage as a whole because of such things. instead of being a happy event it becomes a monumental one which in so may cases does not result in happiness for either party. all i ask is then why is it so bad if someone wants to opt out of this escapade. why cant i choose to escape unscathed instead of leaving with scares i will bear forever? just because society dictates i should marry! the same society who thumbs their noses at you when you dont marry and when you do but divorce. i refuse to belive that people divorce just beacuse one day they woke up and decided to be single. the emotional strain on both people is never considered. why? because life goes on! but want tht life. isnt being married life, not a part of it but it.

another thing i dont get is our society's objection/distaste to anything but an arranged marriage. i agree that our parents are probably the best judge but no even they can determine wht that person will be like behind closed doors. and for that matter neither can I. but in this case cant i as an adult who is quite responsible be expected to make an intelligent decision as to who i want to spend my entire life with. (the reason i keep saying entire is because i believe marriges are forever, this is the old fashioned bit) i mean input from families is welcomed but stupid resistance to a preferred guy just because he was chosen by the girl doesnt make sense.

this may sound like a bitter telling by someone who has had her heart broken one too many times. but believe me when i say i have had no prior relationships in all of my 21 years. i dont believe in being involved with someone just because. if its not the right person, id rather not. and as he hasnt shown up yet so i havent :) but i often wonder about all these things, these unnecessary requirements levied on us. and strangely, more often than not, it isnt the parents but their want to do things, the way they have always happened, and to have ample approval from the #%$^* society!

i just wish mummies and daddies would stop looking for the perfect looking person, who has the right family, the right profession, the right social circle, the right amount of money and other rights but start looking for the right person. coz at the end of the day no amount of money can make a marriage work when the two people cant stand each other. coz in this case a compromise just isnt possible.

and all this stuff about girls from back home are more compatible/docile/beautiful is just bullshit. just because they live in pakistan doesnt mean they arent humans with they share of wants and desires. i agree would have been meeker if had been brought up there but just as angry at any injustice. the only difference being my inability to speak my mind. and believe me when i say a meek bahu from pakistan would take a total of six months to gain ample confidence to shout out her mind.

another thing which just really pisses me off is the dating thing. people, girls and guys from pakistan date too. (just in case some one didnt know!) when i say dating i mean, going out to coffee/dinner/drinks with someone you like, not any and every one who asks/shows interest. thts all. nothing more and nothing less. i mean if its religion we are talking about even going out with someone ze parents select before gettig hitched isnt quite allowed, is it? and then its only looked down upon when its girls not boys, the sons. people, the girl your son is going out with is somebody's daughter jic it didnt occur to you! i am really lucky when it comes to such things. i always tell mum whenever i go out anywhere, an advantage being the fact that i dont live at home. but i have seen my friends having to put up with such double standards and it makes me so mad!

i welcome any input but i dont expect any positive thoughts anyway. so knock your self out!

Restricted access

2007-03-09T18:10:00.000+04:00

hello

ive decided to restrict access to this blog. i write what i feel here, in what ever words in feel like. this might cause a problem along the way. please leave a comment on this post if you would like to be read or on the daily one if you're too late. btw the daily one will still be open to all.

bye

***** i changed my mind! i think i like comments too much! =D

Now this is my kind of an alarm clock!!

2007-03-08T11:37:00.000+04:00

2007-03-01T16:26:00.000+04:00

the last week has just flashed past. for some obscure reason i have been very, very tired and sleepy this past week :(

today's looking up slightly. boss has ordered an absolute treat for me and her. a broken chocolate parfait with white chocolate creme brulee and pineapple in orange caramel, which i'm imagining will look something like this...
YUMMM!!! so hungry right now! time for lunch :)

And it did!!

2007-02-26T10:57:00.000+04:00

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Somedays only Dilbert makes sense!

2007-02-22T15:32:00.000+04:00

The obligatory Vday post

2007-02-14T14:39:00.000+04:00

Most posts i read today were about heartbreak in its various forms, only D-rebs posts were on the happy spectrum. i cant write about either which is probably a bit pathetic as this this my 22nd Valentine's day! (sigh!)
on top of which im at work, by eyes are burning (which is probably coz of my 21" monitor) and so is my back (bloody chair!! :( i need an ergonomic one). the only good thing i noticed all day in the office was that everyone denounced the holiday as being too commercial (a really pathetic excuse!) and so i havent seen anyone getting flowers. which again is sad as no matter how much you may denounce it every women wants flowers today and every husband/boy friend should send some.
well thts all really from my end; to all the couples out there, just go out and celebrate a bit, it is a holiday afterall!

Its just a thought*

2007-02-11T16:34:00.000+04:00

i was just wondering that i never post on the blog when im feeling a bit philosophical or nostalgic or even just happy. i only post when im either bored or incensed or have too much time on my hands.
to tell the truth this was supposed to be a completely anonymous and private blog, a place where i could vent with freedom, where i could write witout hesitation, where i could write without the fear of hurting a loved one. simply put where i could be me. as blunt, as sarcastic and as in secure as i truly am. but i cant be tht person here. i have to be the polite, nice me here.
lately i have been reading a wide array of blogs which range from (on my scale) bizarre(my new pet word in case you hadnt guessed yet) to ridiculous to sweet to inspiring to plain gag inducing. what i dont understand is are these people really who they say they are? am i what i potray through the blog? am i truthful? or do i tend to over exagerrate or understate an event when retelling it? do i write for the pleasure of it? or do i write to exercise my mmind and through out random words into the cyberspace, a word i presume only used in sci-fi movies.
i considered doing a day by day account of my life as i read on some blogs which i truly enjoy. they are like 7days for me, read every morning as soon as i come to the office. then i think what will i write?? tht i slept till 1:30 on friday and saturday and was woken not by my shrill alam but by my mothers' kiss or my my father gently shaking me awake as if it was 7:30 and not 1 in the afternoon.
yes i suppose i could write that. i think the reason that i dont is maybe coz i want approval, from no body specific but everybody in general. i suppose i should stop looing for approval. this is my space. here i will be what i am. boring or monotonous it might me but it is who i am. and i wouldnt want to change that for the world!
hence there will be be two blogs now, one a diary and one for musings and the not so occasional rants. lets see for how many days i can kep this up!

*this post is completely incoherent, written in a flow of thoughts and emotions all coliding in one place, all at once. please dont try to make sense out of it as there is none.

Random stuff...

2007-02-08T13:54:00.000+04:00

This is going to be one of those posts which makes no real sense but here it is any way..

how is it possible that every gora guy looks cute to me? it cant be possible that every gora guy in this city is cute or that my company employs cute goras by the truckload?? at the same time how is it that i spot the ugliest desi guys ever?? it has been extremely rare when i have seen a cute/good looking desi guy walking about and that too with a lack of long greasy unkempt hair, stubble and low slung jeans, all signs of coolness to some, which to me look completely gross! where are all the good looking pakis of the world/dubai hiding?? (scratches head)
moving on, i was told the most bizarre thing yesterday. maybe it was a bit more than bizarre something in the range of huh! i'm standing waiting for the bus when i spot the librarian from the academy, so i go over and say hello and we speak for a bit. now this is not your everyday librarian. she's a 20 something south african who is completely chilled out and really fun. she was standing with a bunch of her south african friends when one of them goes, where are you from? to which i say Pakistan. he looks at me like im someone really strange and says that my accent sounded like a mix of british and south african accents, not paki at all!! where did this come from?? british i get, its the academy talking. i think i acquired this because of speaking nothing but english for the past three years surrounded by native speakers. the south african bit is totally unexplainable coz the only southafrican i really spoke to was mike who did not have an accent! all i can say is hmmm..
this brings me to the next point, and people i really need feedback here, is paki an insult? i mean is calling someone a paki the same as calling an african-american a nigger?? this is what i read on a blog but i really dont think so. ive always considered it a short form for pakistan!
oh and bloody friggin ibn batuta shall hence forth be reffered to as the serpentine monstrosity! shaitan ki aant kay jaise chalta jata hai!! whose bloody idea was it to make it stretch on for miles!! atleast dubai airport has conveyor belts this is without even a mall map so basically i go around in circles without reaching anywhere!

weekend!

2007-02-04T14:03:00.000+04:00

was good!! rain made it better and i forsake my flu woes to enjoy the weather. we went to nando's by the corniche in sharjah and it was pretty good. what was amazing was their chocolate cake..warm, crumbly, oozing with warm chocolate sauce and above all a HUUGEEEEE slice! enough for three people (after lunch ofcourse). in the case of choco freaks like my sister, not even enough for one! :D

mum got back from khi on wednesday, lots of shopping = lots of dvds = a very happy tfl!!

i saw guru which was awesome and then i spulrged and went to see salaam-e-ishq! i just couldnt wait for the dvd and the cinema for me is a spulrge coz 90% of the time its a huge waste of money. but in this case it was well spent coz the movie was great and the songs even better which was a blessing and is there anything i can say about salman khan...(drool!) how old is he again?? ;)

during the movie is sort of funny thing happened. during the parts when there was silence on screen i kept hearing someone using their mp3 in the sence that i could hear songs and i was wondering who would come to see a movie at 11 pm and listen to their mp3 simultaneously??!!
turned out my mp3 was on and was playing all the songs i kept hearing! :)

thts it. am back to work now, its really quiet for a sunday though. will maybe watch omkara tonight. i saw vivaah and mistress of spices yesterday both of which were crap and most of mistress of spices was cut and so didnt make tht much sense to me. it was so very different from the book that all its magic was lost!
all in all was a very good weekend.

Phelgm :(

2007-01-29T16:29:00.000+04:00

first the fog, then a very intense though brief spell of flu and now a fever..!!!!

everyone be like Chandler Bing and go " Could this be any worse"!!

Big yellow taxi- Counting crows

2007-01-28T11:23:00.000+04:00

i just love this song!! :) some of the lines really make sense; and with Hugh Grant being in two weeks notice and then this playing in the background it makes for a double treat, doesnt it! ;)

They paved paradise and put up a parkin' lot
With a pink hotel, a boutique, and a swingin' hot spot
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parkin' lot

They took all the trees, and put em in a tree museum
And they charged the people a dollar and a half to see them
No, no, no, don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you've got till it's gone
They paved paradise, and put up a parkin' lot

Hey farmer, farmer, put away your DDT
I don't care about spots on my apples,
Leave me the birds and the bees - please
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Hey now, they've paved paradise to put up a parking lot
Why not?

Listen, late last night, I heard the screen door swing,
And a big yellow taxi took my girl away
Now don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
Hey now now, don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you got till it's gone
They paved paradise to put up a parking lot
Why not, they paved paradise
They put up a parking lotHey hey hey, paved paradise and put up a parking lot

I don't wanna give it
Why you wanna give it
Why you wanna givin it all away
Hey, hey, hey
Now you wanna give it
I should wanna give it
Cuz you're givin it all away, no no

I don't wanna give it
Why you wanna give it
Why you wanna givin it all away
Cuz you're givin it all givin it all away yeah yeah
Cuz You're givin it all away hey, hey, hey

Hey, paved paradise, to put up a parking lot
la,la, la, la, la, la, la ,la ,la ,la ,la
Paved paradise, and put up a parking lot

Hmmm

2007-01-28T11:19:00.000+04:00

Very wierd!

2007-01-27T12:43:00.000+04:00

first things first, is there an art to writing titles and ending the post??? coz i cant grasp this concept, i just dont know how to end the stupid post so i end up writing something like see u later or byee or ciao. how dumb! please guys if there a secret that im oblivious of please let me in on it, thanks.

now comes the wierd part. my face has turned ito an antenna. yup it realy has. ill tell you how i know. i was in the basement of the burj (the basement is where the staff bus goes to pick up the staff, btw nearly all offices and the cafeteria are below the building, almost at sea level. no sunlight whatsoever, its so urghhh!) my mp3 also has the radio option and tht is what i was listening to, now owing to the fact that we were in the basement i had the worst reception ever and there was this song coming up which i really wanted to listen to so i started waving it about hoping to get something clearer when suddenly it touched my face and zap all i could hear was crystal clear sound! and so for the rest of the time my mp3 was glued to my chin while i was trying to act as nonchalant as possible and ignoring the fact tht everyone was staring :)
and tht is how my face became the universal antenna.

on the movie front i saw click and munich yesterday. click was okay, not as good as i imagined but munich was fantastic. for a movie based on israeli and palestinean relations it was surprizingly based on a middle ground. really good, a must see perhaps.
has anyone seen salaam-e-ishq yet??? i really wanna go and see it but i havent gone yet, maybe will in the next week so please tell me if u saw and what u thought about it, i dont wanna waste money for no reason at all.

on a different note, the brother of my bestest friend in karachi is moving here. tht just might be the best news i have received in sometime as it opens up a whole different avenue of opportunities and possibilities! yayyyy!

i miss mum so much, well only 4 days left now :(

Sooooooooooo..

2007-01-22T15:47:00.000+04:00

well there's nothing new really. dont have internet at home so have to blog out of the office, not very nice :(
on the family front mum's going to karachi on the 24th for eight days, its going to be lonely and i will have to cook and clean on the weekend; not looking forward to that really!
on a personal front i have sworn not to look at any clothes or shoe shop for the next few months. i have brought so much stuff over the weekend, it has to be somekind of a record for me! i cant be blamed if i inherited a very phisloo tendency, can i?? ;) and is it my fault i found things at all the right prices and in the right sizes and that all the malls were at sale?? i guess not :)
i got a pair of the loveliest black strappy sandals with a good heel :) :) me is in shoe paradise! i think i have a shoe fetish, all signs point in that direction!
i hate the bloody sight of ibn batuta already. its walking distance from home now but i keep going around in circles whenever i go there! :(
i dont know if im late in doing this but i read this fabulous article in 7 days a few days ago the link is this.
on a similar note, beirut by strings, is one of those songs which gives me goosebumps even in summer. it is a fantastic song and the video is not to gory which is good. can any one tell me where i can download the video from?
And thts all folks :)

Starting out in a new place...

2007-01-16T09:34:00.000+04:00

is like walking on egg shells. literally! you have to watch every step u take, every thing that come out of your mouth, every expression on your face; coz it all can be, ridiculously, misconstrued.
i dont know where i picked up the walking on egg shells expression but it just fits in to this shituation. although my red finger nails are cheering me up! hehe
why cant people be simple and straightforward? easy to read? direct? matter of fact? why must things be done in a roundabout way when there are simpler and easier ways. i wish everyone in the world behaved like these two amazing people, i know, do. they mean what they say always and thts their charm. its impossible to be cross with them!
i love you mum! and A im starting to really enjoy and look forward to our talks on orkut!
Cheers! :)

So Karachi...

2007-01-11T09:27:00.000+04:00

Karachi was good at times, tiresome at others. i could see any changes after nine years of absence. everything looked and felt the same. the food was yummy as expected, but spicy as hell. i would have had some stomach problems had i stayed longer. people only know one kind of hospitality there, FOOD. they will make you eat and eat and eat until you puke, but refusing is considered rude so tht cant be done either. i dont know how people lose weight there, ive put so much on!! :(
km had to make this visit memorable or rather as memorable as possible and hence we had to take him to omi in the dead of night as he had severe food poisoning due to the quantities of food he was consuming off the street.
the only thing i felt was very strange was the fact that at times it seemed dirt cheap to me, as in the case of books. i probably bought around 15-18 and they costed me something i the area of 160 dirhams. which is nothing. but as far as good clothes and good food was concerned, man it was exorbitant!! i dont know how people live there! there is no balance whatsoever in the prices of things!! another thing which was strange was the food in fast food joints! pizza hut was unimpressive and nando's gave me indigestion. verrryyy wierd.
but after all it was fun, met up with ghazal after so many years. eventhough we only spent a day together i had so much fun! and after seeing her work and the effort she puts into it i could only say i have nothing what so ever to fret about regarding my school work coz we get off pretty easily as compared. on which note i might add, results are almost out. i havent flunked as i expected, so thts a relief :)
work is better as time passes and i suppose once i get used to it, it'll all feel routine and everyday soon.
its the marathon tomorrow and im doing the 10k. which is stupid as i havent even run a km for four months now. i shall see how tht goes.
ill post pics from the trip soon, so ill get back to work now.

Everything's a jumble!!

2007-01-10T17:57:00.000+04:00

so i'm back... from karachi and to work! i came back on the 4th at 2 am and started work on the 7th at 8:30 and thts what ive been doing ever since. WORK!!
even now i have a bunch of figures to plug in and im blogging instead. its absoloutely insane and i dont know what i will do? :( it will probably get better now that i finally have my studio and so will not have to come from and go to sharjah every day, which is such drag!!
on top of it all, im doing the marathon on the 12th and i havent trained for an hour, meaning i will die at around 8 am on the 12th from sheer exhaustion!
ok now that ive put in my share of exclamation marks for the week, ill get back to work and post when i have something happy to report.
ill write the low down on my paki trip soon.

Ciao until then.

I'm off!!

2006-12-23T13:48:00.000+04:00

so i'm off for my first real vacation in eaons!! i dont suppose ill be able to blog from karachi but in anycase ill be back in two weeks. See u then :)

So this is the story

2006-12-20T13:34:00.000+04:00

me, A and ray decided we will take a room at the campus for our exam week and as its quite expensive we'll take on room for all three of us. it was a bright idea but now its sort of fizzled out, in terms of studying! right now while studying for their culture assignment A is doing the dharmendra dance, ray is saying she has a.d.d. and laughing hilariously while making stupid jokes, like asking if cows have snouts! when u r running on as little sleep and just as much adrenalin and coffee as i am everything is funny! right now A is trying to color my scalp with her pen while at the same time declaring that my skull is slimy and drawing a black line on my neck in the process! this morning ray managed to fall of the bed (she was sitting in the middle of it) on to the floor and land on her neck and say that her ass hurts!! and then contemplated whether she had some internal bleeding! how she managed to do that dont ask!! now A is doing the mithun dance with sound effects and their exam is in less than two hours. and for the grand finale ray is singing:

the cow in me needs to eat,

the grass on the floor thts not a wild boar

lalalalala

yesterday ray went beserk when A mistakenly circled a word on her finance text book, thinking it was hers as ray thinks nothing should ever be written on books! she also went berserk when i tore the plastic off her econ book! correct me if im wrong but arent those things supposed to be done to text books! by those things i mean should they be used!!

anyway back to the madhouse!! hehe

3 down the drain one more to go...

2006-12-20T12:08:00.000+04:00

so economics, service operations and finance are done; im desparetely hoping i wont flunk finance otherwise i might be out of the job or atleast face alot of embarrasement!:(
HR tomorrow and then im free as a bird!!! karachi here i come!!!! :):)

Exams start today

2006-12-18T08:02:00.000+04:00

and i dont know anything.. :( and this is how i feel...

Croissants and coffee...yummmmmmmm!!

2006-12-13T10:26:00.000+04:00

so today is the last day im staying on campus, i feel like im almost human again. its amazing how not travelling to sharjah can recharge you even though ive been waking up pretty early these last two days.
today ray came over with with breakfast, yummy croissants and doughnuts and coffee, ahhhh a lovely way to start the day, then a came and we wasted an hour chatting! i love wasting time with my two best girls!! and we always seem to do it whenever we are together, now matter if we have an assignement or test in an hour.
so i now have 7 days more to go, then im off for a year! no school, yayyyy! i know ill miss it, but its not the classes ill miss, but my time with my friends. i dont mind work, i rather like it and the office is quite comfortable in all aspects (we have butlers for for gods' sakes!!) so it wont be too bad, just very late nights and very early mornings.
i have class in an hour, so ill go get ready and continue my endless grumbles when im really pissed off...

I feel like the dog...

2006-12-11T17:35:00.000+04:00

who has run across the world twice... in succession!!
i feel really cranky, just handed in an assignment, havent slept, havent eaten breakfast or lunch, cant even type properly and have a bloody meeting in a few minutes about something no one gives two shits about! then i complete the assignment due tomorrow meaning i bullshit about 400 words to reach the word limit, then... were u thinking sleep?? coz i was saying start the finance assignement and do a chapter for the test tomorrow.
i am so totally exhausted, today i wanted to be early, so to reach college at eight we started off at 6:30 which means i woke up at 5:30, then the bloody roads were seriously messed up and so we got royally fucked! at 7 there was an accident on garhoud, on the 2nd interchange at skh zayed road and the highway was clogged so we backed up to burjuman and went from there via dhiyafah and beach road. so instead of 8 i reached college at 9.
so back to work now..

10 days and counting...

2006-12-10T10:19:00.000+04:00

two years have passed, only 10 more days to go and then i will finish. these ten days, though a really short time, seem like ten bloody years!! there is so much going on, such a lot of work is left to submit that i will be dead by the time the 21st rolls in.
today i have my last deans list ceremony, my last as i know i will not be on there the next time which my recent results demonstrate. then tomorrow, the economics project will be submitted and we will complete the service operations project. then finance, service operations presentation, weekend, come 18th i will be sitting for two exams within an hour of each other.
oh joy!! :(
as far as good news goes, i *think* i have a job. the reason i say think is that although i know it exists, i still have to see any official proof, i dont know when i will be starting exactly, how much will i be paid nor when or where my housing is being arranged. i am going out of my mind as these uncertaininties are the most important ones. the only comfort i have is that its a permanent position and not a management traineeship, so they cant toss my ass out after a year. and as i interned there last summer, i have a very good idea of what i am getting myself into. late nights, galore! but thts what i get for choosing corporate finance as a startup stream.
bas das din aur and then i go to karachi for eid, meet ghazal after eons, and generally have a lazy time, filled with food (sunshine ki kulfi, falooda, kabab paratha rolls, as well as kababs and parathas at bundu khan, and the icing on top of the cake would be mava puffs, chum chum from bhashani, if it still exists, and akhroot ka halwa from rehmat-e-shereen and a visit to espresso, i wanna see what all the fuss is about). aahhhhh food, good desi food!
good so back to stupid TQM.

HELP!!!
if anyone knows anyplace where i might get some facts on the application of tqm and the subsequent improvement, in marriott hotels corp. and boeing, please tell me. i cant find a single thing and they are supposed to be the best at tqm (total quality management)

my current mood

2006-12-04T15:40:00.000+04:00

This is another one

2006-12-04T15:29:00.000+04:00

"Wrap My Words Around You"

Daniel Beddingfield

Is it fair to write a song to a woman?

Is it fair play to try and win her heart?

Is it right to bring her sonnets

In the morning time?

To express the first few

Longings when they start

To express the first few

Longings when they start

Is it right to let her feelingsRise to catch you?

Is it OK when her heart begins to fall?

Would you blame me if I

Wrap my words around you girl?

Would I wrong you

To say anything at all?

Would I wrong you

To say anything at all?

But if I wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

If I wrap my words around you

Would you stay

Would you stay, would you?

Wrap my words around you

If I wrap my words around you

Would you stay

Would it play with your heart?

Am I a hunter if

I send poems to please you?

Am I a cad if

I mean everything I say?

Should I even let you know

This song's about you girl

Just because I want to see you smile today

And my words may bind you

To me much too tightly

You may choke on them if we fall apart

It's not fair to write a song to a woman

Because a woman takes a song into her heart

So let me wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

Till you stay, till you stay, let me

Wrap my words around you

Darling, wrap my words around you

Till you stay

Would it play with your heart

Where are these people?? is someone like this around me? somewhere? anywhere? maybe..

but the question of the hour is will i stay if someone appears or will i run away?

i think i will opt for the latter, so should i wish for it still or give it up as a lost cause...

17 days to go to graduation

2006-12-04T00:46:00.000+04:00

its absolutely amazing tht ive got just 17 days till i finish college; its more unbelievable than anything else!
the best, most care-free days of my life are nearly over and all i can think is now that im finally finishing, will i miss it? will these days hold value for me, in a nostalgic sense? will i look back at them fondly or with regrets? will i relive them ever again?
will i be the same when i go back to school in a year? maybe...maybe not.
why doesnt blogger have spellcheck? dont they know we've forgotten how to spell simple words like can (i write it cna constantly)??
well there had to be a rant in there somewhere!! :P

Baptised Lucifer

2006-11-30T14:36:00.000+04:00

i lurvee this grl! dont believe me, read the comments on this post!
anything which makes me laugh in service operations has to be good.

Violence against women

2006-11-29T14:57:00.000+04:00

Check out the post on D-rebs blog.

(Click on the title)

So today...

2006-11-28T12:19:00.000+04:00

was supposed to be a good day. was a good day until, 10 minutes ago! why do people have to come and screw everything up?
got some very goood news an hour and a half ago, wont tell wht but im really happy bout that!
the next three weeks are going to be nightmarish... i have 4 assignments to submit in the next two weeks, with plenty of quizzes sprinkled in between and then the last week is exam week. i am going completely insane! i need time and i dont have any, im wasting 5-6 hours on a good day and 7-7.5 hrs on a day on commuting from (home to college and back) alone.
please Allah mian, sab khair say ho gaye and please push me through and dont let me flunk out or have a breakdown and please please get everyone off my case at home and please just make them back off and let me go through my moods, alone (but not shunned). pretty please! (ameen)

and now a note to M. we are both pigheaded ppl, whether u wanna agree or not. can u please let me be the queen of stupidity and pigheadedness as well as mood swings for the next three weeks? then u can be the queen forever. and as im moving out in january please hold out now and ill be out of your hair, very soon.
i know u dont like the idea of me moving out, but i wanna do it and i like it so please let me do it. ill be a much nicer person, all round, if you do and a horror if u make me stay at home. thts not a threat, just a fact. and u know it! but know this too, i love u, alot, and i always will no matter where i am or where u r and u will always be first with me. just bear with me now. and let me fly the nest.

Rain rain, come again!!!

2006-11-26T14:54:00.000+04:00

as cheesy as the title sounds, i looveeee the rain. its 3 in the afternoon right now and its been raining for half an hour now. the weather is beautiful!!
for us rain deprived ex-karachites even half an hour of drizzle cum rain is pure bliss..!!
here are some pics of my campus and one below of sharjah.

Our lovely consulate!

2006-11-23T14:12:00.000+04:00

so we went to the Pakistan Consulate on Tuesday. as we are planning to travel before christmas we needed to get our documents in order. everything else was fine, the only thing we needed were ID cards. i had my card but they had missplet dad's last name so i had to get it corrected and km (karachi mutant) needed to get his made. we reach the consulate, its 8:30, and this is my first visit ever and im expecting something official looking if not impressive, i look up and its a complete and total dump, the metal detector is wedged in a corner, and a wooden board propped below it acts like a ramp, there are stacks of paper, visible in the windows above, we enter a gali (really minscule lane) and enter using the door at its end, i see the smallest waiting room ever, which was thankfully empty, with a small window in the centre. so we go poke our heads inside and tell them we have come for id cards. this out, the guy goes Dhs. 60, so km gives him his 60, moves aside and i tell the guy i need to get mine reprinted, and without asking whts wrong or anything, he goes again Dhs 60. i'm like wht is wrong with his guy, its not like im going to run away with the money and even if i do, he hasnt done shit yet. and why the hell should i pay the same as a new id for getting a mistake they made, corrected. anyhow we pay, he gives us these tickets and tells us to come inside. we enter, lo and behold the dingiest office yet. it is as big as a regular classroom and is where all the processing for the cards is done.
we are told to sit as soon as we enter, even though there is no one there. then they call out my number, i go sit at the terminal and this lady in hitler style goes, whts wrong? by this time i was already being regarded as an alien with green skin and antennae and all. why u ask; coz i was in a suit! it wasnt intentional, believe it or not, it is my college uniform. a dark blue suit and a white shirt. and i dont wear a scarf, so i stuck out as a sore thumb in a room full of abaya clad women.
any way i go through the motions, the form is nearly done when this bitch starts screaming my name, im sitting 2 inches away from her and am the only grl in the room, (actually the only person other than km) she can see me and knows im getting the form done but continues shrieking my name until she is told by the hitler lady to wait. i have the stupid picture taken, and then go to the desk where the guy is collecting the signatures to complete the form. i sign, km comes and signs and picks up his pen and starts to leave. the guy goes, wait thts my pen and asks me to attest to the fact tht it was on his desk before km got there. now this is a dollar stick pen, worth a dirham and this guy is acting like its worth a fucking million!! im like fine, keep it and i tell km its worth a dh, even if it is yours let him have it, we'll get another one. at this if the dude had some self-esteem he would asked km to take the pen... but noooo!!
so seriously pissed off, i exit and go to the hand in window and give him the form. and we finally get out of our political asylum/dump (please allah, dont let there be a day, when we might have to go there for asylum, pretty please!!!)
they seriously need to do something to improve the structure and give the nazi staff some lessons in humanity, and teach them to smile and say their pleases and thank u. just coz we are pakistani, doesnt give u the right to treat us like bloody animals. and lets not forget u are paki too!! not staff personally selected by hitler himself.
i hope i never have to go there again, coz i just might lose it! and if i do, it will not be a pretty sight!!

No comments..hmmm

2006-11-22T03:51:00.000+04:00

so ppl i see i have hit the big !)@, sorry i meant 102 mark which is an enormous deal to me. to everyone who came and got my counter rollinggg, THANKS!!!! :) its much appreciated. just one thing, leave a note when u visit so i know and can in turn check your blog out, i really need some new, interesting ones...not tht mine is all that interesting ... or is it ;) but still..:)
anyhoo will post day after tomorrow abt a rather bad experience i had today, coz its a really longggggg rant and i have to finish this bloody HR report and then finish reading economics notes.. i HATE mid-terms!! :(

Wht a day!!

2006-11-20T16:15:00.000+04:00

ok so the 18th was pretty eventful in plenty of ways. firstly we went to GITEX and once there we went quite crazy. although it wasnt really cheap but we were in more or less a spending mood. so we got a laptop, the 2nd in the house, mashallah, and its a really cool one; its a Compaq Presario, i cant remember the model no. but it is silver and has a white keyboard which looks really cute!! then we got a digital camera, FINALLY!!!! tht is one purchase i am totally proud of, i finally got my way and we got a Nikon Coolpix P2 in blue. i wanted a Canon but its too expensive in comparison so I settled for a nikon instead. the only thing i dont like about it is because of some odd reason the pictures are shaky when i turn the flash off. and i dont like taking pictures with the flash unless necessary coz it alters the light quality and hence the effect in the picture. but whatever, we can finally take senseless pics of everything and everyone.

then we (me and my friends) went to the beach, as my birthday party was on the 18th in lieu of the 14th(stupid, stupid finance quiz, and i got a bad grade after all the late nights! :( ) the weather was completely amazing, we had a ball and then came the gifts. they pitched in and got me a sony walkman!! it is a nw-e003f and its pink!! its soooo cute!!

thanks so much guys! im completely in love with it and have taken to carrying it everywhere with me (it lives in my pockect:)!! ). so right now im on a bit of a high, come tomorrow ill be high on caffiene and low on sleep as i have an economics mid-term and an HR submission on the 22nd, both quite heavy on the contributory percentage. why i dont start work before i dont know..?
today i was at work and they ( i think) finally confirmed, as in said that the contract would be ready by next month, that i will be working for them. which is a relief but i was going to take a break and go to karachi for 15 days and come back after eid which doesnt seem possible now as they want me to join after new years day. arrrghhhhhhh!! now im thinking if i should cancel the trip altogether coz; is there any sense in going for a week?? on top of this they still havent confirmed which of the two positions am i being offered, although i have an idea; but still...

the fact tht ill be finished with school, for atleast a year, and will start work full-time, still hasnt sunk in, it is still surreal, intangible, incomprehensible. i still remember in vivid detail when i we were deciding whether i should go to eahm or not and now im done... where did the time fly?!

This is outrageous!!

2006-11-15T18:10:00.000+04:00

going through 7 days today, i found this completely outrageous article; its about women drivers in Saudia, and their continued non-existance. i mean its fine if they dont want women on their roads because ofcourse all problems are caused by women as well as every road accident, but there is this one sentence which takes the cake. it is a statement by the Interior Minister Prince
Nayef bin Abdul Aziz

"This is a secondary issue and it is not on our

priorities (list)...I urge everyone to forget about it...

Such an issue is decided in acccordance with public interests

and women's dignity"

Now bad driving and all i can put up with, but dignity, seriously what the fuck does the car to do our dignity?? Really what an amazingly brilliant statement!!

The 21 year old

2006-11-15T11:40:00.000+04:00

and finally the day has come (and gone) and im offically an adult! yesterday was equal parts fun and extreme stress with the finance mid-term (which went amazingly shitty even with the hours i put into preparing for it)

any how whats done is done, now im wating for the 18th, the official party!! cant wait!!

thanks D-reb for my first blog wish; Ghazal u are without a doubt the best, u remember every year and ive completely screwed up with yours for the past two, im so sorry!!

and thanks to all the people who wished me yesterday at all hours (12:00 am-10 pm); S, Ray, Omie, AA, Maren, AC, KL, KK, SR, LT and everyone im forgetting too!! thanks guys youre the best! :)

Amazing examples..

2006-11-07T15:26:00.000+04:00

Today during finance we were doing net present value and were dicussing risk and associated rate of returns. for the addage "the higher the risk the higher the return" the example given, after saying no offence meant, was

if you had a hotel in central london and one in central karachi which one would have the highest risk associated to it?

and i thought karachi of course coz some sob would definately wanna blow it up!!

i mean no offence was taken as i am the only one in a class of 75 who could possibly take offence, but is this wht we have come to??
all i can say is f**k u, u bloody al qaida sobs! and thank you for today (meant in the most sarcastic way possible).

My thoughts...

2006-11-07T14:36:00.000+04:00

this is an elaboration of my thoughts on a post of D rebs:
his post is basically about how ppl spend most extravagantly to make their lives comfortable and their lifestyle envious but do little or nothing to help those less fortunate than them.
it is more or less the same with me. i have been away from karachi for nearly nine years now and havent visited since, the not visiting was more of a coincidence than a deliberate effort. any how i have grown up in this really liberal place with quite liberal parents away from any knid of society which would even resemble the one at home. i am now a person who despite being female has never been deprived, i have lived on my own while on internships something quite unheard of for most of the pakistani grls i know, i am quite self assured, in more or less a taboo profession (Hospitality), independent, out spoken and i like all of tht about me. i know without a doubt had i grown up these nineish years in karachi i would have been a completely different person. and tht would have been because of social pressures to conform. people standing out, doing things differently are not only not accepted but are deliberately made to feel as if they have commited some sort of an unforgivable sin. which is very stupid.
it is these very things which make people not do things which they should do but instead play follow the leader. i dont think when people give to charity its because they want to but more because they'll be the people who gave such and such amount, oh wow now lets all stand and clap!
i know when i go back to visit over eid at the end of this year, i will be shocked, i will no more have the freedom to speak my mind as my views are too unconventional and i like to voice them which sometimes (read: always) creats squirm inducing situations for my parents, i wont be able to go out when i want by myself coz i wont be allowed.
maybe i am overexaggerating the situation but thts how i see it. ill let you know if they change. in the meanwhile feel free to comment.

did i forget to mention im an out and out cynic??!!

And another one..

2006-11-06T17:23:00.000+04:00

this meme i got off aisha's blog too.
here i go..

Today

Height: 5,2" sigh (yoko height increaser doesnt work!! karachi mutant tried hehehehe)
Color: beige
Piercing: one in my ears, wanna get one more but am afraid it'll hurt
Tattoos: none, no needles for me

Right Now

Time: 5:45
Mood: Strange sort of good, sort of not
Taste: Craving the tiramisu brownie in my bag
Weather: Humid
Bad habit: lately, biting my lips
Thing I want to do: sleep for two days straight
Favourite TV show: Gilmore girls
Book: Love story
Non alcoholic drink: Rani peach float, Starbucks Caramel frapacinno
Brand: Giordano
Perfume: Pleasures by Estee Lauder
Designer: DKNY

Random

Have a job: Part-time financial assistant
My CD player has what in it right now: Fort minor
What makes me happy: Sunshine, flowers, beach

When/What Was the Last

I got a real letter: six months ago from B
Got an email: a few mins ago another college mail
Thing I purchased: earrings
TV program I watched: Fashion house
Movie I saw in the theaters: Narnia
Hugged: Ray :) my hug of the day
Place I was: Work then school
Song heard: Sohniye Juggy D
Phone call: Mummy who me loves

please please please guys, this one.. :)

And the countdown begins...

2006-11-01T19:16:00.000+04:00

13 days to go...

My very first Meme...YAAYYY!!

2006-10-30T17:18:00.000+04:00

This one i got from aisha's blog who in turn got it from huda's blog. and it couldnt be more perfect as its about books. and books and more books :) i'm going to do it differently than the original ones coz i dont want to any impose limits; so here goes:

My absolute favourites: i am a die hard romantic, who still sees life through rose colored glass-atleast most of the time. the only thing im truly cynical about is money. so its no surprize that my favourites would mostly be romantics.

Gone with the wind: read it once and you will get hooked. it is one of those truly romantic novels written in a time when chastity was coveted not ridiculed, and it details the journey of a remarkable woman; remarkable not because she was a perfect woman, an ideal wife, mother, sister and daughter but because she was neither. she was far from perfect but she fought hard and overcame enormous obstacles. another reason is Rhett Butler; i have three men who in my life stand on pedestels; he is one of them. i lovvveeee the character. the movie to be is the most acurate representation of the novel which is quite rare. i always picture vivian leigh as scarlett and clark gable as rhett when ever i read it.

Scarlett: it is the sequel to gone with the wind; she gets the man and goes to ireland, what more could i want?? :)

Love story: this is a fabulous book in the sence that it is an out and out romance but doesnt have an ounce of obsenity. it is also one of the cult books of the 1970s. how can i help but love Oliver Barrett IV!! he is another one of my men on pedestals. this book came highly recommended to me by none other than mama; i think she is more in love with ob than i. she had already told me the story before i even read it but that did not make the read less enjoyable.

Oliver's story: this is the sequel to love story. i read this one before i read love story and i loved it for what it was. it is an amazing book. erich segal has a tact for writting which is so clever so sharp yet there is no crap to be found, no beating around the bush for no reason; he is such a natural writer than you cant help but fall in love with the book.

Must reads:

Boy-tales of childhood: this a true gem. it is Roald Dahl's autobiography and is completely hilarious. it is full of pranks played, punishments received, growing up, schools everything he experienced in his life; incidents which make a

wonderful story. this is a book everyone should read no matter what their age.

Out of the dust: this is all in prose and one of the most beautiful things i have ever read. it is one of those kinds of books which make you want to think that you reallly are previlaged and that when mum says look at those less fortunate than you she really is right.

Howls moving castle: its really funny how i got my hands on this, one of my sisters friends was disposing it and she got it to see if it might me nice. it turned out to be completely fabulous like an amazing presecessor to Harry Potter. i cant nderstand how any one could bring themselves to through it away. btw i read it ages before the movie was made.

Harry Potter: i lovvvveeeee these books, all six of them. i have read them so many times i know them by heart. we are so hooked on to this (me, my sis and bro) tht my sis actually wrote this examm type quiz of the first four books an dmade us solve them as a part of game, it was bloody long and she even marked them. thts how crazy we are!! Lol! :)

i think im going to stop now; its long enough and has taken me absolute ages.

i tag Omie, Ghazal and the Karachi mutant.

O, my bro, how I love thee!!

2006-10-29T12:00:00.000+04:00

how can i not love him, he drives me up the wall sometimes which is plenty of times but he does such things at times and so spontaneously no matter how pissed off i maybe i just start laughing and the anger goes right out the window. like this morning; we got out of the house at 7 am and got to Jumeirah at 10; completely insane (arghhhh!!! Hate traffic want Ramadan timings back!!!); all he was thinking about the entire way, and very loud, was how he had made a major mistake by not coming through rolla (a way to get to dubai from Sharjah) and instead taking al wahda (another way to get to dubai from Sharjah) and I had to listen to this stupid rant every 15 seconds, no amount of shouting and swearing was shutting him up until I threatened to douse him with my cafe latte which was quite hot and then he goes

rolla is nice
whoever doesn’t come from there
will eat mice

tht doesn’t make any sense but it made me laugh; a lot!

Thanks O, my bro; you are the best even though I don’t say tht often J

EID MUBARAK!!!!!

2006-10-23T14:14:00.000+04:00

its finally here!! EID MUBARAK to every one celebrating eid today and an early wish to everyone in Karachi!

Very Interesting

2006-10-22T16:49:00.000+04:00

i was trying ot find some pics from google regarding eid, although i didnt find any pictures worth posting i did find this article on wikipedia called chand raat of Karachi. i would neve have believed i would find mention of gulf in wikipedia!! nice naa, the article is below:

Chand Raat (Urdu: چاند رات, Hindi: चाँद रात literally means Night of the Moon) is a typical term found among Hindi-Urdu speakers of Pakistan and India. It is referred to the festivity celebrated on the eve of Eid.
Chand Raat in Karachi is a moment of joy and festivities. Families and friends usually have a get together on the last day of Ramadan (Ramazan in Urdu/Hindi) to break the last day of fasting. Once the fast has been broken, people gather on rooftops and other open areas in order to spot the new moon and signal the arrival of the Islamic month of Shawwal and the day of Eid. Everybody is enthusiastic, and once the moon is sighted, congratulatory remarks are exchanged among each other with wishes of "Chand raat Mubarak" (Have a blessed night of the new moon) or "Eid Mubarak" (Blessings of the Eid day). Women and girls gather to decorate their hands with mehndi (henna), sweet dishes are prepared for the next day of eid, and the last rounds of shopping for the Eid Day are also carried out on this day.
City streets wear a look of festivities with streets and shopping areas brightly decorated and malls and markets remaining open till late at night. The joy and energy of this night in Karachi are usually very contagious and can be compared with Christmas eve in Christian nations.
Places to visit in Karachi on Chand Raat include Tariq Road, Hyderi Bazaar, Park Towers Clifton and The Gulf near Teen Talwar, Clifton.

And in true karachi spirit, i present an absolute gem

2006-10-22T16:21:00.000+04:00

Happy Birthday Mama!! e

Yesterday was mums 42nd birthday; yet another year passed in the life of the woman i love with all my heart, who is my best friend, the person i learn most from, take most seriously and who is not only my bestest friend but also the best bitching companion a girl could wish for!!!

Happy Birthday mum, mama, ammi, ma mimi, mummy, friend. :)

with love, your sabbo rani

Which of the X-Men am I??? hehe

2006-10-22T16:05:00.000+04:00

You Are Jean Grey
Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death).
Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally!
Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

WOO double HOOOOOOOO

2006-10-19T14:54:00.000+04:00

blog patrol rocks!!!i just discovered i got a visitor each from pakistan, canada and america, how COOL is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Addictions

2006-10-19T14:30:00.000+04:00

ever notice sometimes when you start something no matter how tired or bored you might be you just cant get to stop...its like every particle in yr body is willing you to do it, whether u r in class or at home or even in the library...thts whts been happening to me since yesterday morning i dont remember how i came across jammie's blog but i couldnt stop, read the entire thing yesterday and today have been drifting across these

khizzy

kAy

and jammie's other blog

insane...stupid...misdirected...dont know whts going on, but something definately is...

G do u now these people? i have a feeling u might coz they are from IVSAA as well

inspite of everything i still love this crazy addiction...you cna knw so much about people and find links to people you may even know...

anyone notice the new look of my blog... i love beta!! life is so much easier!!!!!!!:)

the only drawback of beta is tht i cnat use it from home as the connections too slow for it to load so no blogging next week coz ill be offffffffffffff!!! finally a six day break!!! but as soon as i get back im tagging people... so get ready..

happy bunny or rather happy confused bunny

what did i Do??

2006-10-18T10:10:00.000+04:00

this is both a reproach and rhetorical question... what did i do???? as in i havent read anything for the econ quiz thts in 5hrs and 40 mins and what did i do.. as in what the hell have i been doing for the past 2 hrs?

yesterday was a good day after many crappy days...we went out bought stuff :))) always a good thing but in my case the bestest thing coz i got new lenses; my old ones had finished and so i thought ill have my eyes checked again and get new ones; i had a feeling that my prescription had changed again but i had thought only a little bit, but i was soooooooo wrong it shot up from R-7 and L-6.50 to R-7.75 and L-7.25. i actually asked the optician how long before i go blind!!!

any hoo what to do cant revert it so have to live with it...wht else oh yeah i was just telling my mum tht i hadnt done anything which would make it shoot up so much and i got the age old rely back layt kee ghantoon kitabeen parho gi to aur kiya ho (translation: if you will lie on your stomach and read for hours what else do u expect to happen) so i told her i am not the only person in the world to do so to which i got YES U R!!!! go figure...i think she's still pissed off from teh time i asked her not to talk to me, actually everybody, until after i have finished a book and because of my never ending addiction to them. i know tht was rude but wht can i do?? everytime i would be engrossed in my characters' plight someone would start a conver with moi, which is no doubt interesting but i cnat concentrate on wht they are saying at all which makes me want to ask them to repeat themselves which pisses them off; wht can i do??

but all in all no matter how much i may crib about my parents and no matter how much i like my independence i would be unable to survive a day without them, i just wish their faith in me keeps fast and that i never severely disappoint them.

i love u mama and abba!! :))))

Gimme a break!!

2006-10-17T11:51:00.000+04:00

I got an email yesterday which was a repeat of about the controversy of the KFC thing, (them not using real chickens) an I was like really people take a look around you, kfc changed their name from Kentucky fried chicken to kfc so they must be using genetically engineered chickens and has nothing to do with the word fried??!!! The first question I ask is why the hell would someone invest thousands to dollars to create a brand new organism and that too a fast food chain just so they can have meatier chickens?? Do ppl know how much time, money and effort it takes, for someone to even consider doing something of this sort would be a complete WOMBAT! We are constantly reading about how McDonalds is changing their menu to accommodate more healty options because of the growing obesity in America………has anyone out there ever heard of “Super size me”?? and if there was even a shred of truth to this rationally speaking this would have been in the paper, the media would have had a field day and KFC would have been shut down by WHO. And think about this as well, if these genetically engineered chicken did in fact exist how in the hell have they been smuggled into all the countries where there are KFC outlets with being detected??????? As nothing of this sort has been done to date people using a bit of the fluff in your skulls and stop forwarding such crap!!

Now lets rant bout etisalat hehehe; yesterday I was trying to access the gossip page on msn and guess what………it was blocked!! I was like what?? Since when has etisalat taken it upon itself (as a community friendly organization of course) to shield us from the daily shenanigans of Paris Hilton? What could have been on that page that had to be blocked? I am really curious to find out. Or did they just have nothing better do so they just blocked it for fun?

There are just a few more days to go for eid, I just cant believe how Ramadan this year had passed so amazingly quickly; it was just plain weird.

two words: disjointed.............dysfunctional

look what i just found, there is actually a peta website called kfc cruelty.com and another one which is called www.openrescue.org . and the pics on it are just plain gross!!! eeewwwwwwwww

Today is the day

2006-09-22T17:51:00.000+04:00

this is an optimistic one folks
i feel really good today, maybe its the influence a huge bouquet of roses and lilies has on my unusual diposition or the fact that last night was amazing, fantastic, just.....plain great for lack of a more enthusiastic word..i'm almost in a dancing mood today, maybe its that even though i woke up after 4 hours of sleep to go back to work just coming back and seeing my flowers made my day. i dont know why i love flowers so much; i'm quite crazy after them and not any particular ones or immense quantities either a single flame of the forest make me smile and when i see the trees in bloom i feel ...good, weird..but nice and ever since because of the new park they removed all the flame of the forest trees from the bridge coming to Shk Zayed i have lost my fasination for the road. i used to love it when in summer you would come out of the tunnel and all around all i could see was a riot of red..amazing. it can even have something to do with the fact taht the radio has been playing fantastic songs all afternoon and my room is just perfectly cozy..ahhhhh:)
the flowers are currently residing in my electric kettle coz i have no place big enough to keep them in temporarily as im going home today...I FINISHED THE INTERNSHIP.....:):):)
although i not just happy coz i finished work coz i enjoyed every bloody minute of it and hopefully..fingers crossed..ill be back there in six months, but now i have a whole week off and i can do what i want no strings attached..yayyyyyy
so getting back to last night we went to i.e. S, S, O & N and me which make three Ss, Almaz by Momo. i know it sounds like a totally daft name and it doesnt look like much in the beginning and i though we were going for shisha and i couldnt understand how this chic palce in the MOE would have shisha indoors, anyhoo so we are led to the shisha lounge and the bloody place is packed, we are standing outside waiting to be let in when....drumroll please im told only ppl over eighteen are allowed in and im like huh im twenty so then then they ask for the id which i thankfully had
so we are seated really cool place blasting arabic and turkish music, took a little getting used to but after like twenty minutes i was enjoying it, we were there for like four hours, having coffee, shisha, desserts..the best thing probably was that the waiters were dancing, smiling, talking to people, singing when they wanted to which made the atmosphere really good and the fact that there were some cute guys around did not hurt either.. ;) the highlight were the birthdays which were being celebrated, the song would instantly change to Abdul Kader (cheb khaled) which i happen to love, a parade of waiters would come in singing, dancing clapping, take the cake around the whole lounge before finally getting to the right table.. reaallly gooood .
This after the night before's experience at Japengo in madinat souq this was like oh wow..
dont have any pics otherwise would post, so am posting one of the net; hmm somehow the image isnt coming on..anyhow thts all folks
go visit the place and invite me when you go ;)

Will this be my life???????

2006-09-11T20:30:00.000+04:00

Sometimes you listen to a song for the first time and its something that you can actually understand and you start enjoying it and then the words hit u; and i mean hit you not physically but emotionally and hit you hard. this is one of those; probably the only one that ive ever heard which has put something ive being thinking about seriously for a while into some serious prespective. i just hope that this will be nothing more than a serious deja vu moment or a sign and not turn out to be the story of my life.

Its called Whered you go and its by Fort Minor feat. Holly Brooks and Jonah Sons Matranga

Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don`t understand why you always have to be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps me to not to feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don`t have much to say, so

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I`m stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I`ve had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Please Come back home

You know, the place you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
With candy by the pile
But now you only stop by every once in a while
Yeah I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I`m doing fine and I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I`ll tell you

I want you to know its a little messed up that
I`m stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I`ve had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know its a little messed up that I`m stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting here and waiting and makeing these excuses
For why you`re not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don`t really know what you`ve got till its gone
I guess I`ve had it with you and your career
When you come back I won`t be here and you can say

Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone

Please Come back home
Please Come back home
Please Come back home
Please Come back home

Try as u might life will always come back to bite u in the a**

2006-09-10T15:23:00.000+04:00

its late but i have had a really good day!!

2006-09-05T01:01:00.000+04:00

and so i have to share, i just got home, read a reaaaallllllly long and really nice comment from O, combined with the CD thts just amazing!!i OFFICIALLY love fort minor now especially petrified, thnks O the CD is great. in answer to the questions i havent heard any of the songs you mentioned but ill try to download them, as we discussed today the ronan keating version is a total ad for jumeirah. REVPas and student CP hahahaha...lol :)
so wht i did tonight, got together with O, S and L went for dinner to fudo, great service, good food. then went to lotus one which was a dud except for the swings and finally scarletts, my most favorite heroine, whose namesake is a complete DUD..the music wasnt good and there were no free tables, but its the company tht counts and had lots of fun inspite of all tht. on a complete high right now, will look like death warmed over tomorrow morning, so wht new abt that.
gotta go, the beds calling, dont wanna go to work tomorrow, just 6 and a half hours till i have to get up!!!!! :( why oh why do i have to get up tomorrow.. oh yeah and R got back yesterday, just keeps getting better and better..

anyhoo
good night to who evers up..

Ranting in ....3...2...1

2006-07-27T19:14:00.000+04:00

ok so i havent said anything in almost a month so this is going to be long, long, long. it is also going to be full of typos coz i so dont feel like checking anything. this week has been eventful, found out some ppl think of my dept as the dungeon and are also unfortunate enough to be stuck in it. i mean seriuosly its only the boss tht you allow to make you miserable, coz there isnt anyone else to bother you. so dont take things so seriously, i mean please let me live in the office, and by live i mean live and peacefully coexist. coz living is wht ihave been doing lately, in the office that is. two nights in a row i have come back at 10 pm. imagine staring at excel worksheets from 9am to 10 pm. arghhhhhhhhhhh. and its not just me , no one bloody leaves the office to go home.
went to the Bahri bar in mina salam today with the boss, her treat, and had a fab 1 and a half hr. the place was great adn the music was fantastic.
my latest music obsessions are iris-goo goo dolls, big yellow taxi-counting crows, cant fight the moonlight-leann rimes
girly i know, coz i am one
so what more, except work, oh yeah, o's college masla solved will inshallah be seeing him off to malaysia in june :) but we will all miss him, alot! found out that the bloody, graduation gown, which we have to buy, cost bloody aed 275, for something which will rot for life in the closet. wht the f**k! cant we atleast pretend to be in a normal college where students go and not the likes of paris hilton, tht combined with the ball dress, shoes and haircut will result in the most expensive night in my life. and i am sure in two years time i will have to paying double the cost. seriously the academy motto should be join now for a career at the top so you can paying back your debts. so whts more, yup just got a msg from the other O, who is leaving for Jordan. have a good time man and keep me updated.
thts it i guess so when i next get the urge to vent it will all be here.
listening to: we are the champions-queen
reading: little women-pathetic, i know, but ive got no choice!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

EVIL, EVIL, EVIL BLOGGER

2006-07-27T01:29:00.000+04:00

OH MY GOD!! SERIOUSLY!! am i dumb or just misdirected that i wanted to make a new blog template from scratch. not only was i so not able to do that coz i wanted it to look like a design student had done it but i wasnt even able to edit my current template. so with deep remorse, regret and a severe and now throbbing back ache as well as stomach ache developed from not eating dinner till now, i now officially GIVE UP.
i do such moronic things sometimes. and the above the the simplest example. who am i to change something when it doesnot want to be changed. how can i when it is not bloody meant to be. i so wanted to do a nice template but seriously the help websites need to be translated for me. maana i am not a computer geek but i am not a complete dodo either. but in this instance i so compltely proved my self wrong.
on top of it all i so not want to go to work tomorrow. i just bloody dont. so there.
getting back to the template rants, i made out the whole format to edit my links and to add my fav sites but it seems blogger has edited those parts out so now i cant do that either. dont ask me how or why i would believe a soft ware to be against me but i swear it is. or i just cant see anything now.
on a happier note, yes happier i spoke to everyone today and even got visited. jab bhi allah deta hai to chapad phad kai. agar thoda thoda deeday to i guess i would be more satisfied but even so thank you god. it was like suddenly my prayers were answered.
Anju babe, here are some blogs you might enjoy reading coz i read them everyday. have to put them in this way instead of the nice list i had created. sighhhhhh.... a tear falling slowly (not literally though, im still the cold bitch), so here goes sobia- she is the chick with the punju mil, bee amma -whose shituation you will identify with, rehtwo-who i started reading today but the title is fantastico, diligent candy-what can i say, ghazal's-my friend in pak, and finally osama's and omar's who i do enjoy reading when they POST!!
i think this is more than enough coz if i keep on going and i can i will be waken up by my boos in the morning-just like today.
and please put in a comment if you are reading, anyone can not just bloggers, coz id like to know who reads my rubbish.
sleepy time..bye

completely hopeless and clueless

2006-07-26T00:33:00.000+04:00

i am so wishing changing a template was as easy as excel. have been working on it so much nowadays am sick of it and by it i mean excel. i tried to change the blog using sobia's advice here but it doesnt seem to be working. i have just left it at the first step having been able to change the back ground but not the columns and now it is left at the first step which was to change the template to minima black. not only tht for for some WIERD ASS reason my index is stuck at the bottom of the page. ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! just now discovered by inability to type "the" keep writing "teh" for some reason. anyhoo my back is now broken, wishing i was at home so some one could give me a massage but no two more days. until then cribby me!!
must sleep now coz i have to wake up at 7:15 tomorrow so that i can keep snoozing the mobile for 45-50 mins until i know that i dont wake up then i will have to walk to work in the bloody heat. great motivation eh...!! just posting now no time or motivation to splee chack, me lard forgive me.
hehehehehhe
completely delusional..................

Hmmmmm.

2006-07-21T03:14:00.000+04:00

a truly accurate picture of the world we live in.

1 day left...and then back to the grind

2006-07-21T03:12:00.000+04:00

so now thts its coming to an end i wish i could extend my lazy days, the days which start with my mother's voice telling me is high time to get up and then switching on the tv in bed to watch yet another rerun of the Gilmore Girls. now its just tomorrow after which i will head of to my first day as a corporate intern. and with it i will fly away from the nest for two months and am taking enough stuff with me to suffice for a year. but thts me. it also means that now i will miss home like crazy and will go to bed on an empty stomach just cause i dont feel like food and not cause there's nothing to eat cause where food is concerned there is always plenty. mama makes sure of tht. continuously.
hopefully work will be satisfactory and they will treat me like a normal human being, able enough to carry out small tasks adequately and independently and not like some imbecile who just stepped out of kindergarten!

DEAN'S LIST!!!!!

2006-07-21T02:54:00.000+04:00

YAHOOOOOOOOOO!!! HURRAAYYYYYYYY!!! although i got my result a couple of days back did not get the chance to post it. am so happy. i thought all my exams went crappy but actually my gpa went up a tiny, little bit. even though i am estatic! cause this means three semesters in a row on the list i.e. three out of the four taken so far. gpa attained 3.39 for the semester and cumulative 3.35.
YES,YES,YES..!!!

And boredom sets in...

2006-07-16T01:16:00.000+04:00

unbelieveably its only been a week since i got done from college and already i feel like it has been ages. i am so incredibly bored!! its too hot to do anything, cant go anywhere in the afternoon unless i want to end up smelling like a dead racoon, sick of tv coz there's never anything on, read every book in the house more times than i care to mention, watched parts of desparate housewives season 2, AGAIN! watched most of the dvd's again. any one got any ideas??
six days and counting to start of internship...

Finished, done, over….hello LIFE!!

2006-07-10T23:09:00.000+04:00

i am finally done with my exams the last having finished 6 hours and twenty minutes before. i am so relieved!! not only did my exams finish but with them my second last semester. now just eight months more and i will be a graduate. Scary yet exciting all the same. i will finally be earning something rather than just paying.
hello vacations, life and all that comes with it i.e. movies, books-fiction of course, and long, lazy summer afternoons spent doing absolutely nothing and not to forget shopping in the summer sales!!
here's to fun!!!!! and freedom!! :)

Stats and the flu

2006-07-09T02:47:00.000+04:00

its not fair!!!
that i get the flu two days before i finish exams
that i have to choose between medicine or studying
that i have to study stats and organizational behaviour in a row
that i have to stay on the dean's list
that the whole world gets to doze during all hours of the day while i cant do it for another two days
and that try as i might i cant seem to study anything
11 hrs and counting till t-time i.e stats exam

good luck to me:( and to getting even a b on this exam!! :[

Proud to be a DESI!!!

2006-07-02T14:34:00.000+04:00

I got this message as an email. it lists the qualities of "desi's". Read and decide for yourself!!

When you tell your parents you got 98%, and they ask you what happened to the other two percent.
There is a sale on any item, you buy 100 of them.
You make tea in a saucepan.
You never buy bin bags, but use your saved grocery bags for it.
You put your clothes in suitcases instead of wardrobes.
You have a 'Singer Brother' sewing machine at home.
Your mother has a minor disagreement with her sister and doesn't talk to her for ten years.
You call an older person you've never met before "uncle".
You hide everything from your parents.
Your mother does everything for you if you are male.
You do all the housework and cooking if you are female.
Your relatives alone could populate a small city.
Everyone is a family friend.
Everyone always called you for help on homework.
You study law, medicine or engineering at university.
You were thick so you studied computer science or business instead.
You know no one who has studied music.
You went to a university as far away from home as possible.
You still came back home to live with your parents after you had finished.
Your best friend got married at the age of 18.
You like the meat well done.
You eat onions with everything.
You use chili sauce instead of tomato ketchup.
You fight over who pays the dinner bill.
You say you hate Indian films/songs but secretly watch/hear them.
You avoid public places when with a member of the opposite sex, especially if there is an acquaintance within a 250 miles radius.
You always say "open the light" instead of "turn the light on".
You secure your baggage with a rope.
You're walking out of customs with your trolley at the airport and you see all twenty-five members of your family who have come to pick you up.
You get very upset when airlines refuse to accept your luggage which is just 80 lbs. overweight.
You go back to your parents' country and people treat you like a member of the royal family.
You ask your dad a simple question and he tells you story of how he had to walk miles barefoot just to get to school.
Your Dad drives a Nissan.
You're rich so he drives a Mercedes.
You are ALWAYS taking off and putting on your shoes wherever you go.
When you were little you always wondered why your English friends waited until after breakfast to brush their teeth when you did it first thing in the morning.
To your English friends, oil is used purely for cooking and not as a grooming aid.
Your parents have nicknames but only because people they work with just stop when trying to read their names.
You have annoying nicknames like Chotu or Chicku.
Your parents call all your friends "Beta" (son/daughter).
Your mother measures wealth in gold and diamonds.
Your parents drink 3 cups of tea a day.
Your parents compare you to all of their friends' kids.
At least once a week your mom says, "I want to go to India/Pakistan".
No one ever seems to call ahead of time to say they are coming over for a visit.
Your parents worry what other people will think if you're not going to be a doctor/ engineer.
You're parent's always say while shopping abroad, "It's cheaper in India/Pakistan".

FBISE we showed ya!!!!

2006-07-02T09:22:00.000+04:00

My sister's results came out the 28th of june. she had appeared for her grade 10 board exam and she came out with an 83%!!!!! tht was an extremenly pleasant surprize. i have not known any one normal to get that kind of marks and she did. and by normal i mean people who live their lives, watch tv, read, listen to music and waste a bit of time too rather than just studying compulsively all year long. i was so proud, msging everyone i could think of and am still telling every one, i havent told yet, about it.
bloody amazing!!!!!

And finally, ladies and gentlemen

2006-06-26T12:17:00.000+04:00

i was constantly trying to get titles for my posts, thought something was wrong witht he template (and didnt like the first one alot either) so changed it thrice and finally saw that i had set the option to no titles! smacked myself on the head and got my beloved titles!! :)
happy, happy, happy...

congratulations and celebrations, dear karachi mutant!!!

2006-06-26T10:07:00.000+04:00

today my bhiayya took his first steps towards getting a driver's licence. he passed his parking test!!!!!! i'm so happy

today is turning out to be a very good day, i nearly signed my contract for the job im starting this summer; although its just an internship its a gr8 step towards a real kick ass job next march when i will graduate. as well as this discovered my best friend has a blog. finally someone who can comment on my posts. and what better way to keep up with each other. have a nice day G :) hopefullly will see you soon, inshallah next year.

Bloggers, bloggers, bloggers...

2006-06-25T15:10:00.000+04:00

Have been reading blogs all afternoon instead of reading for my accounting exam. found some people with wild ideas and some who lead the most exciting lives, some i could not belive have not been blocked yet. i wouldnt be surprized if they were blocked tomorrow. afterall etisalat constantly blocks harmless as well extremely usefull sites (Skype anyone....) A sadistic hobby... depriving people of their poison.
feel like strangling my brother for introducing me to this madness.. but what to do
diligent candy, you go grl and keep blogging :)

euphoric...estatic

2006-06-19T21:20:00.000+04:00

that perfectly describes my state of mind right now. no college for 4 whole dayssss....... :) bliss, heaven, bed, movies.................................
although im not that lucky with my finals two weeks away i have to start slaving away, start opening books not touched as yet and memorize stuff i wont be able to recall a week after i finish exams.
coz i stubbornly want to maintain my place on the dean's list a hope diminishing with every stats exam lets hope i feel as determined when i'm wrting the exams to check the bloody thing once over and prevent from leaving stupid mistakes behind coz i want to escape to the sunshine as soon as i finish writing the last sentence.
my next and last semester is looking scarier by the minute as i just finished choosing my electives. i have a foreboding feeling tht i just screwed up my life by choosing finance and economics when i already had as compulsories like human resources and services operations. here's hoping that i prove myself wrong. tht added to the fact that im working the entire summer, next year doesnt look as rosy now as i expected before..

more on my miserable exsistance later.

Me....... the marvel or mystery

2006-06-19T15:37:00.000+04:00

hi all....
this being the first day I have ever read a blog, let me say I dont know shit about what im doing. read some postings, liked them decided to jump right into the thick of things. what can I say, its a personality malfunction I cant keep in check. I hope this not one of those things which once started loses all lusture..
what more is there.. let me say some bout me. im a student, currently, looking forward to the next eight months in which I will finally be one no moreee yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaahhh!! :) I am in one of those obscure fields which everyone misunderstands and makes into the most obvious professions. I'm doing hospitality and tourism and you guessed it.... it has nothing whatso ever to do with hospitals, the first question everyone asks. i hate traffic and look desperately forward to day I get my driver's license and car coz going to Jumeirah from sharjah everyday is like going to hell and back all in one day. i'm thinking of designating Dubai as my official residence as I spend all my waking hours here and only go home to eat and sleep. AHH sleep how I miss thee....
thts it for now, more from fickle me later.

Au Revoir!!

Rantings of an over-worked,selfish Pakistani chick

Change of address

Insaneness

Eye Candy-Josh Duhamel

lots of random fluffy bits

TFL the ghost and other interesting tales

TFL: License to drive muahahahahahahaaaaaa!!! *evil grin*

17th June, 2007

Hmm..

Update

TFL= Tacos

Why dont i have a boyfriend??

and then they come

Lyrics

Karachi- the fiasco

Rugby Rock

The absolute truth!

The world is full of pinheads..

The joys of internet!

L I F E

Beyonce feat Shakira - Beautiful Liar

What to do when you have a cold

Happy Birthday Sunshine!!

dekho barish ho rahi hai...

seven wierd things about moi

my peculiar aristrocratic title

Tales of feet and comedians

on the many idiosyncrasies in life...

My Virtual DNA

Marriage and desi marriage

Restricted access

Now this is my kind of an alarm clock!!

You are The Empress

Somedays only Dilbert makes sense!

The obligatory Vday post

Its just a thought*

Random stuff...

weekend!

Phelgm :(

Big yellow taxi- Counting crows

Hmmm

Very wierd!

Sooooooooooo..

Starting out in a new place...

So Karachi...

Everything's a jumble!!

I'm off!!

So this is the story

3 down the drain one more to go...

Exams start today

Croissants and coffee...yummmmmmmm!!

I feel like the dog...

10 days and counting...

my current mood

This is another one

17 days to go to graduation

Baptised Lucifer

Violence against women

So today...

Rain rain, come again!!!

Our lovely consulate!

No comments..hmmm

Wht a day!!

This is outrageous!!

The 21 year old

Amazing examples..

My thoughts...

And another one..

And the countdown begins...

My very first Meme...YAAYYY!!

O, my bro, how I love thee!!

EID MUBARAK!!!!!

Very Interesting

Which of the X-Men am I??? hehe

WOO double HOOOOOOOO

Addictions

what did i Do??

Gimme a break!!

Today is the day

Will this be my life???????

TFL: License to drive muahahahahahahaaaaaa!!! evil grin