The absolute truth!

** By the way this isnt the truth, its a joke :)

The world is full of pinheads..

and im completely surrounded by them!

ive had more than my share of idiots for the year please Allah mian keep the rest far far away from me lest i completely lose it! Ameen.

What happens to Ashok in the strip is what will happen to me very soon... ill go completely ballistic over some unknown person and have a total meltdown!

The joys of internet!

when down in the dumps watch love actually or something similar :) its even better when you get a copy on the internet =D

a nice throughly romantic movie has the power to make me feel so warm and fuzzy! its like everything is right with the world once more =D especially one overflowing with cute guys *drool* i really dont care what hugh grant likes to do in his free time, i still think he is bloody cute. i really wanna go see music and lyrics *hint* coz ive heard its amazing and i really dont wanna go alone , did that once was not fun *double triple hint!* just incase you missed the others ray ;)

coming back to reality...work is fine, if a bit overwhelming at times, driving is shit; my ex-instructor is/was trampling on my nerves and messing with my head and common sense :( and hence she is now the ex! have asked for some else now, a guy preferably lets see how that works out. discovered the most delish perfume today, its Hermes, Eau de Merveilles, its surprizingly within budget so im thinking of getting myself a bottle or maybe ill get mum one instead of me. its about time i started spoiling her a bit rather than buying stuff for myself!

the weekend starts in two days, cannot wait.

L I F E

im sleepy. but then whats new about tht?? either im pissed, sleepy or just fed up. why am i not happy?? ive been going out constantly (moving out has its benefits), laughing incessantly courtesy ray, a and Qob. its like something is missing! i have a really good job, but im not happy. i used to look forward to moving out, escaping, even when i had nothing to escape from, and now that im here...im not happy, i hate saturdays, i dont want to come back here! yet i do. im not happy, im not satisfied, yet i should be so very thankful to Allah mian, for everything coz everything makes sense, everything is in place. except me. im in limbo. and i dont like it. i was the cocky one. i knew exactly what i wanted, when i wanted and how I was going to get it. now i no longer want those things. i want stuff i shunned, pushed away, looked the other way, fought against, never accepted, cried so many tears because of, i looked down upon...and now i want them. and i cant have them! i want music, laughter, faith, i want to be surrounded by people, enveloped in noise, and smiles and warm smells and lots of love. all i am surrounded by now...is a tv and an empty cold room; hollow and quiet.

i made the bed and now i must lie in it.

Beyonce feat Shakira - Beautiful Liar

i blame ray for getting me hooked on to this!

What to do when you have a cold

1. Shoot yourself!
2. Shout not again, and then shoot yourself
3. take it like a woman and deal with it
4. blow your nose like a trumpet so that everyone hears, gets to know you are sick, and gets grossed out!

right now im going with number 4 and finishing boxes upon boxes of tissue paper.

if any one know of a magic cure to this, please let me know so that i can stop driving my collegues insane :) in all fairness i cant be expected to run to the ladies room whenever i have to blow my nose coz thts every three minutes ;)

Happy Birthday Sunshine!!

today the littleist one in the family turns 18!! happy birthday my darling!! Have a great day today and enjoy this year =D

Stop worrying about high school politics and board marks! when they couldnt bring me, the stupidist child in the family down, they can do you no harm! so smile, let them be. just be who you are. you know we love you for you not for how many 90%s you score.

happy birthday little sister, enjoy these years for very soon you wont be a teenager any more and life will have lost its innocence, its charm, its carefree nature. very soon newton's third law will apply to all situations and you will feel too much perfection is demanded of you.

enjoy it while it lasts =D

lots of kisses

love

Apa

dekho barish ho rahi hai...

its raining, its raining, its raining!! (its a song and really funny coz of the way its sung :P)

it rained quite a bit today. as usual i didnt have the camera with me :( got back around nine, went for a run and in the middle, it started to rain really hard. it was so beautiful, absolutely quiet, no one around, music and rain =D i wish tht would be the case everyday!

saw namaste london on youtube. was okay, the end wasnt included in the last clip :( but he gets the girl definately coz its a hindi movie, right :)

went out with ray and qob today, good times :) have my second driving class tomorrow.

will write more later, lots of stuff has happened, but no energy to write...

off to bed with me :)

seven wierd things about moi

i got tagged by abcd law (thank god!!) i stopped at five and then remembered two more :P

1. i have full fleged imaginary conversations with real but unknown people, meaning they exist i just havent met them, ever. all in my head, can entertain myself for hours like this and they are probably more interesting than real conversations.
2. i have a thing for haircuts. ive got everything i wanted to try done, thankfully mum is patient enough to put up with it! ive had everything from a fringe to a flick to a mushroom cut (really long hair chopped off so short my neck was visible, which i also got shaved so it looked like a proper boy's mushroom cut)
3. my ideal man is clark gable as rhett butler.
4. every one ive ever had a crush on has turned out to be a complete asshole! thankfully the crush was based purely on looks which turned to dust as soon as i heard their stupid ass convos.
5. allah mian installed a wierd magnet in me before sending me here. i swear to god each and every wierdo i ever meet or even just pass by on the way to class, is somehow attracted to me. they stare like no tomorrow but never speak. and these are not shy indo-pak guys. these are bloody europeans. i mean if you can stare surely you can stay hello. atleast it will be less repulsive :(
6. nobody believes that im a pakistani. even the starbucks guy asked and did not believe the answer! why!!?? just coz im on the fairer side and can speak angreezan di zaban (english) just because all you ignorant bastards believe all pakistanis are pathan taxi drivers doesnt mean we all are! get a life and an encyclopedia while you're at it!
7. i am only funny when im being sarcastic/ bitchy. in a normal circumstance i can kill a joke more effectively than raid kills roaches. its that sad.

i'm quite sure i wont be on anyone's bloglist from tomorrow, but thts who i am. one big fruitcake :)

i tag alta(get off your lazy and start writing), ustani, km and ze queen of babble.

my peculiar aristrocratic title

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is: Viscountess Tfl the Unique of Pease Pottage Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title

chalo atleast i'm a viscountess :) the rest be damned ;)

arey wah, just tried the whole thing, this is what i got

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is: Empress The Friendly Lion the Sonorous of Chignall Duntisbourne Get your Peculiar Aristocratic Title

Tales of feet and comedians

sooo tired! :( feel like doing a rip van winkle and sleeping for years. ive been at work for nearly 14 hours for the last two days, not a very god senario, i think im turning into a workaholic but do they whine as much as i do??

i think i have this thing called arch pain, i know it sounds pretty lame but hurts like shit! if i do ill have to give up heels, wht will happen to my pretty shoes then :( and wont be able to run unless i get myself some really good (read expensive) running shoes; I so donot want to spend 300 on joggers even if they are nikes.

tomorrow's going to be a long day :( but only two more days till the weekend so yayy!

dont have much to whine about so ill sleep now.

did i say i love russell peters? dont believe me, go here.

on the many idiosyncrasies in life...

i am so addicted to il divo, it isnt funny. ive been listening to them repeatedly for the last two days. even as i type i have one earphone jammed in, boss doesnt seem to mind it as long as i can hear whats going on and work simultaneously.
yesterday was a day for bizzare happenings. it started with this girl from hr hugging me when i gave her some papers for her boss's sign; continued when my boss told me she was worried about me. this was said when she saw my desk which littered with all kinds of paper. to make my day, i get on the bus out side burj, it goes in to pick up people, every one gets in, doors close when someone taps me on the shoulder. i turn around to see who, its a guy i dont know but i smile thinking may be i do know him and cant remember. but then im like lemme ask, so i ask him if i know him, he goes No! and starts laughing uproariously! i mean maha freak anyone??!! thank god he did not attempt a conversation! :S

another thing which has been bugging me lately is the way people sit in the bus. its like they feel that the bus is theirs and hence they can sit in whatever way they like! i mean oj i realise you are a large person and need space especially when u r sitting on the tiny, foldup seat in the aisle but that does not mean that you can take all the space you want while i shrink against the bus side! and if it ended at that, it would have been okay but when i keep shrinking and the other person keeps taking up space, it just pisses me off!
any how, off to sleep..

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Marriage and desi marriage

i have been reading a lot of stuff on marriges on a variety of blogs. i seem to agree and disagree with alot of this stuff. i am strange when it comes to marriage, the ever dreaded M word. i am way too liberal in some ways and too old fashioned in others. as screwed up as that might sound!

this post is my take on stuff discussed in mezba and aisha's blog.

i think marriage, at its very core is two people who decide to live together for their entire lives. thts it. it does not have to be miserable, it should not be forced and it is not a way of life but life itself. the world over people prefer to live alone if they dont find someone they think they can live with happily. but no being desi we cant do that. why? well because log kiya kaheengaye (what will people say). these log (people) will have plenty to say whether you're a) unmarried b)engaged c) married d) spinster (a word i hate! there is no age for marriage, neither is there a right time, until the time the right person turns up!)

wikipedia defines marrige as
"A marriage is an interpersonal relationship with governmental, social, or religious recognition, usually intimate and sexual, and often created as a contract.[1] The most frequently occurring form of marriage unites a man and a woman as husband and wife"

The reasons for marriage are

"The reasons people marry vary widely, but usually include one or more of the following: the public declaration of love; the formation of a family unit; legitimizing sexual relations and procreation; legal, social and economic stability; and the education and nurturing of children."

what i couldnt find any where were the words "i hereby condemn you to a life of servitude, misery and subservience; a life of imprisonment where you may never be able to speak your mind or do as you wish."

my point is marriage isnt some anamoly which when occurs changes everything. all it should change is tht before you were alone and now there is some one to share everything; so that u are never alone; some one who you go home to; someone to count on, always. am i wrong? should it be such a drastic decision that your life is changed for ever and not only your life but who you are, the person who youve always been.

some thing else which puzzles me alot is that when you get married, in desi land, all compromises are expected to be done by the girl. the guy will continue to live his life as always but the girl will have to change everything from what she wears, what she eats, when and how she eats, whether she should work or not. why? is there something so wrong with the way you were living before? all im saying is that yes, compromises have to be made when two complete strangers (as is the case with arranged marriges) have to live together, sharing everything. but way must the girl be expected/forced to make them? shouldnt they both meet halfway?

i dont get all these wierd expectations of people. i have developed a serious distaste of marriage as a whole because of such things. instead of being a happy event it becomes a monumental one which in so may cases does not result in happiness for either party. all i ask is then why is it so bad if someone wants to opt out of this escapade. why cant i choose to escape unscathed instead of leaving with scares i will bear forever? just because society dictates i should marry! the same society who thumbs their noses at you when you dont marry and when you do but divorce. i refuse to belive that people divorce just beacuse one day they woke up and decided to be single. the emotional strain on both people is never considered. why? because life goes on! but want tht life. isnt being married life, not a part of it but it.

another thing i dont get is our society's objection/distaste to anything but an arranged marriage. i agree that our parents are probably the best judge but no even they can determine wht that person will be like behind closed doors. and for that matter neither can I. but in this case cant i as an adult who is quite responsible be expected to make an intelligent decision as to who i want to spend my entire life with. (the reason i keep saying entire is because i believe marriges are forever, this is the old fashioned bit) i mean input from families is welcomed but stupid resistance to a preferred guy just because he was chosen by the girl doesnt make sense.

this may sound like a bitter telling by someone who has had her heart broken one too many times. but believe me when i say i have had no prior relationships in all of my 21 years. i dont believe in being involved with someone just because. if its not the right person, id rather not. and as he hasnt shown up yet so i havent :) but i often wonder about all these things, these unnecessary requirements levied on us. and strangely, more often than not, it isnt the parents but their want to do things, the way they have always happened, and to have ample approval from the #%$^* society!

i just wish mummies and daddies would stop looking for the perfect looking person, who has the right family, the right profession, the right social circle, the right amount of money and other rights but start looking for the right person. coz at the end of the day no amount of money can make a marriage work when the two people cant stand each other. coz in this case a compromise just isnt possible.

and all this stuff about girls from back home are more compatible/docile/beautiful is just bullshit. just because they live in pakistan doesnt mean they arent humans with they share of wants and desires. i agree would have been meeker if had been brought up there but just as angry at any injustice. the only difference being my inability to speak my mind. and believe me when i say a meek bahu from pakistan would take a total of six months to gain ample confidence to shout out her mind.

another thing which just really pisses me off is the dating thing. people, girls and guys from pakistan date too. (just in case some one didnt know!) when i say dating i mean, going out to coffee/dinner/drinks with someone you like, not any and every one who asks/shows interest. thts all. nothing more and nothing less. i mean if its religion we are talking about even going out with someone ze parents select before gettig hitched isnt quite allowed, is it? and then its only looked down upon when its girls not boys, the sons. people, the girl your son is going out with is somebody's daughter jic it didnt occur to you! i am really lucky when it comes to such things. i always tell mum whenever i go out anywhere, an advantage being the fact that i dont live at home. but i have seen my friends having to put up with such double standards and it makes me so mad!

i welcome any input but i dont expect any positive thoughts anyway. so knock your self out!

Restricted access

hello

ive decided to restrict access to this blog. i write what i feel here, in what ever words in feel like. this might cause a problem along the way. please leave a comment on this post if you would like to be read or on the daily one if you're too late. btw the daily one will still be open to all.

bye

***** i changed my mind! i think i like comments too much! =D

Now this is my kind of an alarm clock!!

the last week has just flashed past. for some obscure reason i have been very, very tired and sleepy this past week :(

today's looking up slightly. boss has ordered an absolute treat for me and her. a broken chocolate parfait with white chocolate creme brulee and pineapple in orange caramel, which i'm imagining will look something like this...
YUMMM!!! so hungry right now! time for lunch :)

And it did!!

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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The obligatory Vday post

Most posts i read today were about heartbreak in its various forms, only D-rebs posts were on the happy spectrum. i cant write about either which is probably a bit pathetic as this this my 22nd Valentine's day! (sigh!)
on top of which im at work, by eyes are burning (which is probably coz of my 21" monitor) and so is my back (bloody chair!! :( i need an ergonomic one). the only good thing i noticed all day in the office was that everyone denounced the holiday as being too commercial (a really pathetic excuse!) and so i havent seen anyone getting flowers. which again is sad as no matter how much you may denounce it every women wants flowers today and every husband/boy friend should send some.
well thts all really from my end; to all the couples out there, just go out and celebrate a bit, it is a holiday afterall!