You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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The obligatory Vday post

Most posts i read today were about heartbreak in its various forms, only D-rebs posts were on the happy spectrum. i cant write about either which is probably a bit pathetic as this this my 22nd Valentine's day! (sigh!)
on top of which im at work, by eyes are burning (which is probably coz of my 21" monitor) and so is my back (bloody chair!! :( i need an ergonomic one). the only good thing i noticed all day in the office was that everyone denounced the holiday as being too commercial (a really pathetic excuse!) and so i havent seen anyone getting flowers. which again is sad as no matter how much you may denounce it every women wants flowers today and every husband/boy friend should send some.
well thts all really from my end; to all the couples out there, just go out and celebrate a bit, it is a holiday afterall!

Its just a thought*

i was just wondering that i never post on the blog when im feeling a bit philosophical or nostalgic or even just happy. i only post when im either bored or incensed or have too much time on my hands.
to tell the truth this was supposed to be a completely anonymous and private blog, a place where i could vent with freedom, where i could write witout hesitation, where i could write without the fear of hurting a loved one. simply put where i could be me. as blunt, as sarcastic and as in secure as i truly am. but i cant be tht person here. i have to be the polite, nice me here.
lately i have been reading a wide array of blogs which range from (on my scale) bizarre(my new pet word in case you hadnt guessed yet) to ridiculous to sweet to inspiring to plain gag inducing. what i dont understand is are these people really who they say they are? am i what i potray through the blog? am i truthful? or do i tend to over exagerrate or understate an event when retelling it? do i write for the pleasure of it? or do i write to exercise my mmind and through out random words into the cyberspace, a word i presume only used in sci-fi movies.
i considered doing a day by day account of my life as i read on some blogs which i truly enjoy. they are like 7days for me, read every morning as soon as i come to the office. then i think what will i write?? tht i slept till 1:30 on friday and saturday and was woken not by my shrill alam but by my mothers' kiss or my my father gently shaking me awake as if it was 7:30 and not 1 in the afternoon.
yes i suppose i could write that. i think the reason that i dont is maybe coz i want approval, from no body specific but everybody in general. i suppose i should stop looing for approval. this is my space. here i will be what i am. boring or monotonous it might me but it is who i am. and i wouldnt want to change that for the world!
hence there will be be two blogs now, one a diary and one for musings and the not so occasional rants. lets see for how many days i can kep this up!

*this post is completely incoherent, written in a flow of thoughts and emotions all coliding in one place, all at once. please dont try to make sense out of it as there is none.

Random stuff...

This is going to be one of those posts which makes no real sense but here it is any way..

• how is it possible that every gora guy looks cute to me? it cant be possible that every gora guy in this city is cute or that my company employs cute goras by the truckload?? at the same time how is it that i spot the ugliest desi guys ever?? it has been extremely rare when i have seen a cute/good looking desi guy walking about and that too with a lack of long greasy unkempt hair, stubble and low slung jeans, all signs of coolness to some, which to me look completely gross! where are all the good looking pakis of the world/dubai hiding?? (scratches head)
• moving on, i was told the most bizarre thing yesterday. maybe it was a bit more than bizarre something in the range of huh! i'm standing waiting for the bus when i spot the librarian from the academy, so i go over and say hello and we speak for a bit. now this is not your everyday librarian. she's a 20 something south african who is completely chilled out and really fun. she was standing with a bunch of her south african friends when one of them goes, where are you from? to which i say Pakistan. he looks at me like im someone really strange and says that my accent sounded like a mix of british and south african accents, not paki at all!! where did this come from?? british i get, its the academy talking. i think i acquired this because of speaking nothing but english for the past three years surrounded by native speakers. the south african bit is totally unexplainable coz the only southafrican i really spoke to was mike who did not have an accent! all i can say is hmmm..
• this brings me to the next point, and people i really need feedback here, is paki an insult? i mean is calling someone a paki the same as calling an african-american a nigger?? this is what i read on a blog but i really dont think so. ive always considered it a short form for pakistan!
• oh and bloody friggin ibn batuta shall hence forth be reffered to as the serpentine monstrosity! shaitan ki aant kay jaise chalta jata hai!! whose bloody idea was it to make it stretch on for miles!! atleast dubai airport has conveyor belts this is without even a mall map so basically i go around in circles without reaching anywhere!

weekend!

was good!! rain made it better and i forsake my flu woes to enjoy the weather. we went to nando's by the corniche in sharjah and it was pretty good. what was amazing was their chocolate cake..warm, crumbly, oozing with warm chocolate sauce and above all a HUUGEEEEE slice! enough for three people (after lunch ofcourse). in the case of choco freaks like my sister, not even enough for one! :D

mum got back from khi on wednesday, lots of shopping = lots of dvds = a very happy tfl!!

i saw guru which was awesome and then i spulrged and went to see salaam-e-ishq! i just couldnt wait for the dvd and the cinema for me is a spulrge coz 90% of the time its a huge waste of money. but in this case it was well spent coz the movie was great and the songs even better which was a blessing and is there anything i can say about salman khan...(drool!) how old is he again?? ;)

during the movie is sort of funny thing happened. during the parts when there was silence on screen i kept hearing someone using their mp3 in the sence that i could hear songs and i was wondering who would come to see a movie at 11 pm and listen to their mp3 simultaneously??!!
turned out my mp3 was on and was playing all the songs i kept hearing! :)

thts it. am back to work now, its really quiet for a sunday though. will maybe watch omkara tonight. i saw vivaah and mistress of spices yesterday both of which were crap and most of mistress of spices was cut and so didnt make tht much sense to me. it was so very different from the book that all its magic was lost!
all in all was a very good weekend.