I'm off!!

so i'm off for my first real vacation in eaons!! i dont suppose ill be able to blog from karachi but in anycase ill be back in two weeks. See u then :)

So this is the story

me, A and ray decided we will take a room at the campus for our exam week and as its quite expensive we'll take on room for all three of us. it was a bright idea but now its sort of fizzled out, in terms of studying! right now while studying for their culture assignment A is doing the dharmendra dance, ray is saying she has a.d.d. and laughing hilariously while making stupid jokes, like asking if cows have snouts! when u r running on as little sleep and just as much adrenalin and coffee as i am everything is funny! right now A is trying to color my scalp with her pen while at the same time declaring that my skull is slimy and drawing a black line on my neck in the process! this morning ray managed to fall of the bed (she was sitting in the middle of it) on to the floor and land on her neck and say that her ass hurts!! and then contemplated whether she had some internal bleeding! how she managed to do that dont ask!! now A is doing the mithun dance with sound effects and their exam is in less than two hours. and for the grand finale ray is singing:

the cow in me needs to eat,

the grass on the floor thts not a wild boar

lalalalala

yesterday ray went beserk when A mistakenly circled a word on her finance text book, thinking it was hers as ray thinks nothing should ever be written on books! she also went berserk when i tore the plastic off her econ book! correct me if im wrong but arent those things supposed to be done to text books! by those things i mean should they be used!!

anyway back to the madhouse!! hehe

3 down the drain one more to go...

so economics, service operations and finance are done; im desparetely hoping i wont flunk finance otherwise i might be out of the job or atleast face alot of embarrasement!:(
HR tomorrow and then im free as a bird!!! karachi here i come!!!! :):)

Exams start today

and i dont know anything.. :( and this is how i feel...

Croissants and coffee...yummmmmmmm!!

so today is the last day im staying on campus, i feel like im almost human again. its amazing how not travelling to sharjah can recharge you even though ive been waking up pretty early these last two days.
today ray came over with with breakfast, yummy croissants and doughnuts and coffee, ahhhh a lovely way to start the day, then a came and we wasted an hour chatting! i love wasting time with my two best girls!! and we always seem to do it whenever we are together, now matter if we have an assignement or test in an hour.
so i now have 7 days more to go, then im off for a year! no school, yayyyy! i know ill miss it, but its not the classes ill miss, but my time with my friends. i dont mind work, i rather like it and the office is quite comfortable in all aspects (we have butlers for for gods' sakes!!) so it wont be too bad, just very late nights and very early mornings.
i have class in an hour, so ill go get ready and continue my endless grumbles when im really pissed off...

I feel like the dog...

who has run across the world twice... in succession!!
i feel really cranky, just handed in an assignment, havent slept, havent eaten breakfast or lunch, cant even type properly and have a bloody meeting in a few minutes about something no one gives two shits about! then i complete the assignment due tomorrow meaning i bullshit about 400 words to reach the word limit, then... were u thinking sleep?? coz i was saying start the finance assignement and do a chapter for the test tomorrow.
i am so totally exhausted, today i wanted to be early, so to reach college at eight we started off at 6:30 which means i woke up at 5:30, then the bloody roads were seriously messed up and so we got royally fucked! at 7 there was an accident on garhoud, on the 2nd interchange at skh zayed road and the highway was clogged so we backed up to burjuman and went from there via dhiyafah and beach road. so instead of 8 i reached college at 9.
so back to work now..

10 days and counting...

two years have passed, only 10 more days to go and then i will finish. these ten days, though a really short time, seem like ten bloody years!! there is so much going on, such a lot of work is left to submit that i will be dead by the time the 21st rolls in.
today i have my last deans list ceremony, my last as i know i will not be on there the next time which my recent results demonstrate. then tomorrow, the economics project will be submitted and we will complete the service operations project. then finance, service operations presentation, weekend, come 18th i will be sitting for two exams within an hour of each other.
oh joy!! :(
as far as good news goes, i *think* i have a job. the reason i say think is that although i know it exists, i still have to see any official proof, i dont know when i will be starting exactly, how much will i be paid nor when or where my housing is being arranged. i am going out of my mind as these uncertaininties are the most important ones. the only comfort i have is that its a permanent position and not a management traineeship, so they cant toss my ass out after a year. and as i interned there last summer, i have a very good idea of what i am getting myself into. late nights, galore! but thts what i get for choosing corporate finance as a startup stream.
bas das din aur and then i go to karachi for eid, meet ghazal after eons, and generally have a lazy time, filled with food (sunshine ki kulfi, falooda, kabab paratha rolls, as well as kababs and parathas at bundu khan, and the icing on top of the cake would be mava puffs, chum chum from bhashani, if it still exists, and akhroot ka halwa from rehmat-e-shereen and a visit to espresso, i wanna see what all the fuss is about). aahhhhh food, good desi food!
good so back to stupid TQM.

HELP!!!
if anyone knows anyplace where i might get some facts on the application of tqm and the subsequent improvement, in marriott hotels corp. and boeing, please tell me. i cant find a single thing and they are supposed to be the best at tqm (total quality management)

my current mood

This is another one

"Wrap My Words Around You"

Daniel Beddingfield

Is it fair to write a song to a woman?

Is it fair play to try and win her heart?

Is it right to bring her sonnets

In the morning time?

To express the first few

Longings when they start

To express the first few

Longings when they start

Is it right to let her feelingsRise to catch you?

Is it OK when her heart begins to fall?

Would you blame me if I

Wrap my words around you girl?

Would I wrong you

To say anything at all?

Would I wrong you

To say anything at all?

But if I wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

If I wrap my words around you

Would you stay

Would you stay, would you?

Wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

If I wrap my words around you

Would you stay

Would it play with your heart?

Am I a hunter if

I send poems to please you?

Am I a cad if

I mean everything I say?

Should I even let you know

This song's about you girl

Just because I want to see you smile today

And my words may bind you

To me much too tightly

You may choke on them if we fall apart

It's not fair to write a song to a woman

Because a woman takes a song into her heart

Because a woman takes a song into her heart

So let me wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

Till you stay, till you stay, let me

Wrap my words around you

Wrap my words around you

Darling, wrap my words around you

Till you stay

Would it play with your heart

Where are these people?? is someone like this around me? somewhere? anywhere? maybe..

but the question of the hour is will i stay if someone appears or will i run away?

i think i will opt for the latter, so should i wish for it still or give it up as a lost cause...

17 days to go to graduation

its absolutely amazing tht ive got just 17 days till i finish college; its more unbelievable than anything else!
the best, most care-free days of my life are nearly over and all i can think is now that im finally finishing, will i miss it? will these days hold value for me, in a nostalgic sense? will i look back at them fondly or with regrets? will i relive them ever again?
will i be the same when i go back to school in a year? maybe...maybe not.
why doesnt blogger have spellcheck? dont they know we've forgotten how to spell simple words like can (i write it cna constantly)??
well there had to be a rant in there somewhere!! :P

Baptised Lucifer

i lurvee this grl! dont believe me, read the comments on this post!
anything which makes me laugh in service operations has to be good.

Violence against women

Check out the post on D-rebs blog.

(Click on the title)

So today...

was supposed to be a good day. was a good day until, 10 minutes ago! why do people have to come and screw everything up?
got some very goood news an hour and a half ago, wont tell wht but im really happy bout that!
the next three weeks are going to be nightmarish... i have 4 assignments to submit in the next two weeks, with plenty of quizzes sprinkled in between and then the last week is exam week. i am going completely insane! i need time and i dont have any, im wasting 5-6 hours on a good day and 7-7.5 hrs on a day on commuting from (home to college and back) alone.
please Allah mian, sab khair say ho gaye and please push me through and dont let me flunk out or have a breakdown and please please get everyone off my case at home and please just make them back off and let me go through my moods, alone (but not shunned). pretty please! (ameen)

and now a note to M. we are both pigheaded ppl, whether u wanna agree or not. can u please let me be the queen of stupidity and pigheadedness as well as mood swings for the next three weeks? then u can be the queen forever. and as im moving out in january please hold out now and ill be out of your hair, very soon.
i know u dont like the idea of me moving out, but i wanna do it and i like it so please let me do it. ill be a much nicer person, all round, if you do and a horror if u make me stay at home. thts not a threat, just a fact. and u know it! but know this too, i love u, alot, and i always will no matter where i am or where u r and u will always be first with me. just bear with me now. and let me fly the nest.

Rain rain, come again!!!

as cheesy as the title sounds, i looveeee the rain. its 3 in the afternoon right now and its been raining for half an hour now. the weather is beautiful!!
for us rain deprived ex-karachites even half an hour of drizzle cum rain is pure bliss..!!
here are some pics of my campus and one below of sharjah.

Our lovely consulate!

so we went to the Pakistan Consulate on Tuesday. as we are planning to travel before christmas we needed to get our documents in order. everything else was fine, the only thing we needed were ID cards. i had my card but they had missplet dad's last name so i had to get it corrected and km (karachi mutant) needed to get his made. we reach the consulate, its 8:30, and this is my first visit ever and im expecting something official looking if not impressive, i look up and its a complete and total dump, the metal detector is wedged in a corner, and a wooden board propped below it acts like a ramp, there are stacks of paper, visible in the windows above, we enter a gali (really minscule lane) and enter using the door at its end, i see the smallest waiting room ever, which was thankfully empty, with a small window in the centre. so we go poke our heads inside and tell them we have come for id cards. this out, the guy goes Dhs. 60, so km gives him his 60, moves aside and i tell the guy i need to get mine reprinted, and without asking whts wrong or anything, he goes again Dhs 60. i'm like wht is wrong with his guy, its not like im going to run away with the money and even if i do, he hasnt done shit yet. and why the hell should i pay the same as a new id for getting a mistake they made, corrected. anyhow we pay, he gives us these tickets and tells us to come inside. we enter, lo and behold the dingiest office yet. it is as big as a regular classroom and is where all the processing for the cards is done.
we are told to sit as soon as we enter, even though there is no one there. then they call out my number, i go sit at the terminal and this lady in hitler style goes, whts wrong? by this time i was already being regarded as an alien with green skin and antennae and all. why u ask; coz i was in a suit! it wasnt intentional, believe it or not, it is my college uniform. a dark blue suit and a white shirt. and i dont wear a scarf, so i stuck out as a sore thumb in a room full of abaya clad women.
any way i go through the motions, the form is nearly done when this bitch starts screaming my name, im sitting 2 inches away from her and am the only grl in the room, (actually the only person other than km) she can see me and knows im getting the form done but continues shrieking my name until she is told by the hitler lady to wait. i have the stupid picture taken, and then go to the desk where the guy is collecting the signatures to complete the form. i sign, km comes and signs and picks up his pen and starts to leave. the guy goes, wait thts my pen and asks me to attest to the fact tht it was on his desk before km got there. now this is a dollar stick pen, worth a dirham and this guy is acting like its worth a fucking million!! im like fine, keep it and i tell km its worth a dh, even if it is yours let him have it, we'll get another one. at this if the dude had some self-esteem he would asked km to take the pen... but noooo!!
so seriously pissed off, i exit and go to the hand in window and give him the form. and we finally get out of our political asylum/dump (please allah, dont let there be a day, when we might have to go there for asylum, pretty please!!!)
they seriously need to do something to improve the structure and give the nazi staff some lessons in humanity, and teach them to smile and say their pleases and thank u. just coz we are pakistani, doesnt give u the right to treat us like bloody animals. and lets not forget u are paki too!! not staff personally selected by hitler himself.
i hope i never have to go there again, coz i just might lose it! and if i do, it will not be a pretty sight!!

No comments..hmmm

so ppl i see i have hit the big !)@, sorry i meant 102 mark which is an enormous deal to me. to everyone who came and got my counter rollinggg, THANKS!!!! :) its much appreciated. just one thing, leave a note when u visit so i know and can in turn check your blog out, i really need some new, interesting ones...not tht mine is all that interesting ... or is it ;) but still..:)
anyhoo will post day after tomorrow abt a rather bad experience i had today, coz its a really longggggg rant and i have to finish this bloody HR report and then finish reading economics notes.. i HATE mid-terms!! :(

Wht a day!!

ok so the 18th was pretty eventful in plenty of ways. firstly we went to GITEX and once there we went quite crazy. although it wasnt really cheap but we were in more or less a spending mood. so we got a laptop, the 2nd in the house, mashallah, and its a really cool one; its a Compaq Presario, i cant remember the model no. but it is silver and has a white keyboard which looks really cute!! then we got a digital camera, FINALLY!!!! tht is one purchase i am totally proud of, i finally got my way and we got a Nikon Coolpix P2 in blue. i wanted a Canon but its too expensive in comparison so I settled for a nikon instead. the only thing i dont like about it is because of some odd reason the pictures are shaky when i turn the flash off. and i dont like taking pictures with the flash unless necessary coz it alters the light quality and hence the effect in the picture. but whatever, we can finally take senseless pics of everything and everyone.

then we (me and my friends) went to the beach, as my birthday party was on the 18th in lieu of the 14th(stupid, stupid finance quiz, and i got a bad grade after all the late nights! :( ) the weather was completely amazing, we had a ball and then came the gifts. they pitched in and got me a sony walkman!! it is a nw-e003f and its pink!! its soooo cute!!

thanks so much guys! im completely in love with it and have taken to carrying it everywhere with me (it lives in my pockect:)!! ). so right now im on a bit of a high, come tomorrow ill be high on caffiene and low on sleep as i have an economics mid-term and an HR submission on the 22nd, both quite heavy on the contributory percentage. why i dont start work before i dont know..?
today i was at work and they ( i think) finally confirmed, as in said that the contract would be ready by next month, that i will be working for them. which is a relief but i was going to take a break and go to karachi for 15 days and come back after eid which doesnt seem possible now as they want me to join after new years day. arrrghhhhhhh!! now im thinking if i should cancel the trip altogether coz; is there any sense in going for a week?? on top of this they still havent confirmed which of the two positions am i being offered, although i have an idea; but still...

the fact tht ill be finished with school, for atleast a year, and will start work full-time, still hasnt sunk in, it is still surreal, intangible, incomprehensible. i still remember in vivid detail when i we were deciding whether i should go to eahm or not and now im done... where did the time fly?!

This is outrageous!!

going through 7 days today, i found this completely outrageous article; its about women drivers in Saudia, and their continued non-existance. i mean its fine if they dont want women on their roads because ofcourse all problems are caused by women as well as every road accident, but there is this one sentence which takes the cake. it is a statement by the Interior Minister Prince
Nayef bin Abdul Aziz

"This is a secondary issue and it is not on our

priorities (list)...I urge everyone to forget about it...

Such an issue is decided in acccordance with public interests

and women's dignity"

Now bad driving and all i can put up with, but dignity, seriously what the fuck does the car to do our dignity?? Really what an amazingly brilliant statement!!

The 21 year old

and finally the day has come (and gone) and im offically an adult! yesterday was equal parts fun and extreme stress with the finance mid-term (which went amazingly shitty even with the hours i put into preparing for it)

any how whats done is done, now im wating for the 18th, the official party!! cant wait!!

thanks D-reb for my first blog wish; Ghazal u are without a doubt the best, u remember every year and ive completely screwed up with yours for the past two, im so sorry!!

and thanks to all the people who wished me yesterday at all hours (12:00 am-10 pm); S, Ray, Omie, AA, Maren, AC, KL, KK, SR, LT and everyone im forgetting too!! thanks guys youre the best! :)

Amazing examples..

Today during finance we were doing net present value and were dicussing risk and associated rate of returns. for the addage "the higher the risk the higher the return" the example given, after saying no offence meant, was

if you had a hotel in central london and one in central karachi which one would have the highest risk associated to it?

and i thought karachi of course coz some sob would definately wanna blow it up!!

i mean no offence was taken as i am the only one in a class of 75 who could possibly take offence, but is this wht we have come to??
all i can say is f**k u, u bloody al qaida sobs! and thank you for today (meant in the most sarcastic way possible).

My thoughts...

this is an elaboration of my thoughts on a post of D rebs:
his post is basically about how ppl spend most extravagantly to make their lives comfortable and their lifestyle envious but do little or nothing to help those less fortunate than them.
it is more or less the same with me. i have been away from karachi for nearly nine years now and havent visited since, the not visiting was more of a coincidence than a deliberate effort. any how i have grown up in this really liberal place with quite liberal parents away from any knid of society which would even resemble the one at home. i am now a person who despite being female has never been deprived, i have lived on my own while on internships something quite unheard of for most of the pakistani grls i know, i am quite self assured, in more or less a taboo profession (Hospitality), independent, out spoken and i like all of tht about me. i know without a doubt had i grown up these nineish years in karachi i would have been a completely different person. and tht would have been because of social pressures to conform. people standing out, doing things differently are not only not accepted but are deliberately made to feel as if they have commited some sort of an unforgivable sin. which is very stupid.
it is these very things which make people not do things which they should do but instead play follow the leader. i dont think when people give to charity its because they want to but more because they'll be the people who gave such and such amount, oh wow now lets all stand and clap!
i know when i go back to visit over eid at the end of this year, i will be shocked, i will no more have the freedom to speak my mind as my views are too unconventional and i like to voice them which sometimes (read: always) creats squirm inducing situations for my parents, i wont be able to go out when i want by myself coz i wont be allowed.
maybe i am overexaggerating the situation but thts how i see it. ill let you know if they change. in the meanwhile feel free to comment.

did i forget to mention im an out and out cynic??!!

And another one..

this meme i got off aisha's blog too.
here i go..

Today

Height: 5,2" sigh (yoko height increaser doesnt work!! karachi mutant tried hehehehe)
Color: beige
Piercing: one in my ears, wanna get one more but am afraid it'll hurt
Tattoos: none, no needles for me

Right Now

Time: 5:45
Mood: Strange sort of good, sort of not
Taste: Craving the tiramisu brownie in my bag
Weather: Humid
Bad habit: lately, biting my lips
Thing I want to do: sleep for two days straight
Favourite TV show: Gilmore girls
Book: Love story
Non alcoholic drink: Rani peach float, Starbucks Caramel frapacinno
Brand: Giordano
Perfume: Pleasures by Estee Lauder
Designer: DKNY

Random

Have a job: Part-time financial assistant
My CD player has what in it right now: Fort minor
What makes me happy: Sunshine, flowers, beach

When/What Was the Last

I got a real letter: six months ago from B
Got an email: a few mins ago another college mail
Thing I purchased: earrings
TV program I watched: Fashion house
Movie I saw in the theaters: Narnia
Hugged: Ray :) my hug of the day
Place I was: Work then school
Song heard: Sohniye Juggy D
Phone call: Mummy who me loves

please please please guys, this one.. :)

And the countdown begins...

13 days to go...

My very first Meme...YAAYYY!!

This one i got from aisha's blog who in turn got it from huda's blog. and it couldnt be more perfect as its about books. and books and more books :) i'm going to do it differently than the original ones coz i dont want to any impose limits; so here goes:

My absolute favourites: i am a die hard romantic, who still sees life through rose colored glass-atleast most of the time. the only thing im truly cynical about is money. so its no surprize that my favourites would mostly be romantics.

Gone with the wind: read it once and you will get hooked. it is one of those truly romantic novels written in a time when chastity was coveted not ridiculed, and it details the journey of a remarkable woman; remarkable not because she was a perfect woman, an ideal wife, mother, sister and daughter but because she was neither. she was far from perfect but she fought hard and overcame enormous obstacles. another reason is Rhett Butler; i have three men who in my life stand on pedestels; he is one of them. i lovvveeee the character. the movie to be is the most acurate representation of the novel which is quite rare. i always picture vivian leigh as scarlett and clark gable as rhett when ever i read it.

Scarlett: it is the sequel to gone with the wind; she gets the man and goes to ireland, what more could i want?? :)

Love story: this is a fabulous book in the sence that it is an out and out romance but doesnt have an ounce of obsenity. it is also one of the cult books of the 1970s. how can i help but love Oliver Barrett IV!! he is another one of my men on pedestals. this book came highly recommended to me by none other than mama; i think she is more in love with ob than i. she had already told me the story before i even read it but that did not make the read less enjoyable.

Oliver's story: this is the sequel to love story. i read this one before i read love story and i loved it for what it was. it is an amazing book. erich segal has a tact for writting which is so clever so sharp yet there is no crap to be found, no beating around the bush for no reason; he is such a natural writer than you cant help but fall in love with the book.

Must reads:

Boy-tales of childhood: this a true gem. it is Roald Dahl's autobiography and is completely hilarious. it is full of pranks played, punishments received, growing up, schools everything he experienced in his life; incidents which make a

wonderful story. this is a book everyone should read no matter what their age.

Out of the dust: this is all in prose and one of the most beautiful things i have ever read. it is one of those kinds of books which make you want to think that you reallly are previlaged and that when mum says look at those less fortunate than you she really is right.

Howls moving castle: its really funny how i got my hands on this, one of my sisters friends was disposing it and she got it to see if it might me nice. it turned out to be completely fabulous like an amazing presecessor to Harry Potter. i cant nderstand how any one could bring themselves to through it away. btw i read it ages before the movie was made.

Harry Potter: i lovvvveeeee these books, all six of them. i have read them so many times i know them by heart. we are so hooked on to this (me, my sis and bro) tht my sis actually wrote this examm type quiz of the first four books an dmade us solve them as a part of game, it was bloody long and she even marked them. thts how crazy we are!! Lol! :)

i think im going to stop now; its long enough and has taken me absolute ages.

i tag Omie, Ghazal and the Karachi mutant.

O, my bro, how I love thee!!

how can i not love him, he drives me up the wall sometimes which is plenty of times but he does such things at times and so spontaneously no matter how pissed off i maybe i just start laughing and the anger goes right out the window. like this morning; we got out of the house at 7 am and got to Jumeirah at 10; completely insane (arghhhh!!! Hate traffic want Ramadan timings back!!!); all he was thinking about the entire way, and very loud, was how he had made a major mistake by not coming through rolla (a way to get to dubai from Sharjah) and instead taking al wahda (another way to get to dubai from Sharjah) and I had to listen to this stupid rant every 15 seconds, no amount of shouting and swearing was shutting him up until I threatened to douse him with my cafe latte which was quite hot and then he goes

rolla is nice
whoever doesn’t come from there
will eat mice

tht doesn’t make any sense but it made me laugh; a lot!

Thanks O, my bro; you are the best even though I don’t say tht often J

EID MUBARAK!!!!!

its finally here!! EID MUBARAK to every one celebrating eid today and an early wish to everyone in Karachi!

Very Interesting

i was trying ot find some pics from google regarding eid, although i didnt find any pictures worth posting i did find this article on wikipedia called chand raat of Karachi. i would neve have believed i would find mention of gulf in wikipedia!! nice naa, the article is below:

Chand Raat (Urdu: چاند رات, Hindi: चाँद रात literally means Night of the Moon) is a typical term found among Hindi-Urdu speakers of Pakistan and India. It is referred to the festivity celebrated on the eve of Eid.
Chand Raat in Karachi is a moment of joy and festivities. Families and friends usually have a get together on the last day of Ramadan (Ramazan in Urdu/Hindi) to break the last day of fasting. Once the fast has been broken, people gather on rooftops and other open areas in order to spot the new moon and signal the arrival of the Islamic month of Shawwal and the day of Eid. Everybody is enthusiastic, and once the moon is sighted, congratulatory remarks are exchanged among each other with wishes of "Chand raat Mubarak" (Have a blessed night of the new moon) or "Eid Mubarak" (Blessings of the Eid day). Women and girls gather to decorate their hands with mehndi (henna), sweet dishes are prepared for the next day of eid, and the last rounds of shopping for the Eid Day are also carried out on this day.
City streets wear a look of festivities with streets and shopping areas brightly decorated and malls and markets remaining open till late at night. The joy and energy of this night in Karachi are usually very contagious and can be compared with Christmas eve in Christian nations.
Places to visit in Karachi on Chand Raat include Tariq Road, Hyderi Bazaar, Park Towers Clifton and The Gulf near Teen Talwar, Clifton.

And in true karachi spirit, i present an absolute gem

Happy Birthday Mama!! e

Yesterday was mums 42nd birthday; yet another year passed in the life of the woman i love with all my heart, who is my best friend, the person i learn most from, take most seriously and who is not only my bestest friend but also the best bitching companion a girl could wish for!!!

Happy Birthday mum, mama, ammi, ma mimi, mummy, friend. :)

with love, your sabbo rani

Which of the X-Men am I??? hehe

You Are Jean Grey
Although your fate is often unknown, you always seem to survive (even after death).
Your mind is your greatest weapon, literally!
Powers: telepathy and telekinesis, the ability to project thoughts into the mind of others, communication with animals

WOO double HOOOOOOOO

blog patrol rocks!!!i just discovered i got a visitor each from pakistan, canada and america, how COOL is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Addictions

ever notice sometimes when you start something no matter how tired or bored you might be you just cant get to stop...its like every particle in yr body is willing you to do it, whether u r in class or at home or even in the library...thts whts been happening to me since yesterday morning i dont remember how i came across jammie's blog but i couldnt stop, read the entire thing yesterday and today have been drifting across these

khizzy

kAy

and jammie's other blog

insane...stupid...misdirected...dont know whts going on, but something definately is...

G do u now these people? i have a feeling u might coz they are from IVSAA as well

inspite of everything i still love this crazy addiction...you cna knw so much about people and find links to people you may even know...

anyone notice the new look of my blog... i love beta!! life is so much easier!!!!!!!:)

the only drawback of beta is tht i cnat use it from home as the connections too slow for it to load so no blogging next week coz ill be offffffffffffff!!! finally a six day break!!! but as soon as i get back im tagging people... so get ready..

happy bunny or rather happy confused bunny

what did i Do??

this is both a reproach and rhetorical question... what did i do???? as in i havent read anything for the econ quiz thts in 5hrs and 40 mins and what did i do.. as in what the hell have i been doing for the past 2 hrs?

yesterday was a good day after many crappy days...we went out bought stuff :))) always a good thing but in my case the bestest thing coz i got new lenses; my old ones had finished and so i thought ill have my eyes checked again and get new ones; i had a feeling that my prescription had changed again but i had thought only a little bit, but i was soooooooo wrong it shot up from R-7 and L-6.50 to R-7.75 and L-7.25. i actually asked the optician how long before i go blind!!!

any hoo what to do cant revert it so have to live with it...wht else oh yeah i was just telling my mum tht i hadnt done anything which would make it shoot up so much and i got the age old rely back layt kee ghantoon kitabeen parho gi to aur kiya ho (translation: if you will lie on your stomach and read for hours what else do u expect to happen) so i told her i am not the only person in the world to do so to which i got YES U R!!!! go figure...i think she's still pissed off from teh time i asked her not to talk to me, actually everybody, until after i have finished a book and because of my never ending addiction to them. i know tht was rude but wht can i do?? everytime i would be engrossed in my characters' plight someone would start a conver with moi, which is no doubt interesting but i cnat concentrate on wht they are saying at all which makes me want to ask them to repeat themselves which pisses them off; wht can i do??

but all in all no matter how much i may crib about my parents and no matter how much i like my independence i would be unable to survive a day without them, i just wish their faith in me keeps fast and that i never severely disappoint them.

i love u mama and abba!! :))))

Gimme a break!!

I got an email yesterday which was a repeat of about the controversy of the KFC thing, (them not using real chickens) an I was like really people take a look around you, kfc changed their name from Kentucky fried chicken to kfc so they must be using genetically engineered chickens and has nothing to do with the word fried??!!! The first question I ask is why the hell would someone invest thousands to dollars to create a brand new organism and that too a fast food chain just so they can have meatier chickens?? Do ppl know how much time, money and effort it takes, for someone to even consider doing something of this sort would be a complete WOMBAT! We are constantly reading about how McDonalds is changing their menu to accommodate more healty options because of the growing obesity in America………has anyone out there ever heard of “Super size me”?? and if there was even a shred of truth to this rationally speaking this would have been in the paper, the media would have had a field day and KFC would have been shut down by WHO. And think about this as well, if these genetically engineered chicken did in fact exist how in the hell have they been smuggled into all the countries where there are KFC outlets with being detected??????? As nothing of this sort has been done to date people using a bit of the fluff in your skulls and stop forwarding such crap!!

Now lets rant bout etisalat hehehe; yesterday I was trying to access the gossip page on msn and guess what………it was blocked!! I was like what?? Since when has etisalat taken it upon itself (as a community friendly organization of course) to shield us from the daily shenanigans of Paris Hilton? What could have been on that page that had to be blocked? I am really curious to find out. Or did they just have nothing better do so they just blocked it for fun?

There are just a few more days to go for eid, I just cant believe how Ramadan this year had passed so amazingly quickly; it was just plain weird.

two words: disjointed.............dysfunctional

look what i just found, there is actually a peta website called kfc cruelty.com and another one which is called www.openrescue.org . and the pics on it are just plain gross!!! eeewwwwwwwww

Today is the day

this is an optimistic one folks
i feel really good today, maybe its the influence a huge bouquet of roses and lilies has on my unusual diposition or the fact that last night was amazing, fantastic, just.....plain great for lack of a more enthusiastic word..i'm almost in a dancing mood today, maybe its that even though i woke up after 4 hours of sleep to go back to work just coming back and seeing my flowers made my day. i dont know why i love flowers so much; i'm quite crazy after them and not any particular ones or immense quantities either a single flame of the forest make me smile and when i see the trees in bloom i feel ...good, weird..but nice and ever since because of the new park they removed all the flame of the forest trees from the bridge coming to Shk Zayed i have lost my fasination for the road. i used to love it when in summer you would come out of the tunnel and all around all i could see was a riot of red..amazing. it can even have something to do with the fact taht the radio has been playing fantastic songs all afternoon and my room is just perfectly cozy..ahhhhh:)
the flowers are currently residing in my electric kettle coz i have no place big enough to keep them in temporarily as im going home today...I FINISHED THE INTERNSHIP.....:):):)
although i not just happy coz i finished work coz i enjoyed every bloody minute of it and hopefully..fingers crossed..ill be back there in six months, but now i have a whole week off and i can do what i want no strings attached..yayyyyyy
so getting back to last night we went to i.e. S, S, O & N and me which make three Ss, Almaz by Momo. i know it sounds like a totally daft name and it doesnt look like much in the beginning and i though we were going for shisha and i couldnt understand how this chic palce in the MOE would have shisha indoors, anyhoo so we are led to the shisha lounge and the bloody place is packed, we are standing outside waiting to be let in when....drumroll please im told only ppl over eighteen are allowed in and im like huh im twenty so then then they ask for the id which i thankfully had
so we are seated really cool place blasting arabic and turkish music, took a little getting used to but after like twenty minutes i was enjoying it, we were there for like four hours, having coffee, shisha, desserts..the best thing probably was that the waiters were dancing, smiling, talking to people, singing when they wanted to which made the atmosphere really good and the fact that there were some cute guys around did not hurt either.. ;) the highlight were the birthdays which were being celebrated, the song would instantly change to Abdul Kader (cheb khaled) which i happen to love, a parade of waiters would come in singing, dancing clapping, take the cake around the whole lounge before finally getting to the right table.. reaallly gooood .
This after the night before's experience at Japengo in madinat souq this was like oh wow..
dont have any pics otherwise would post, so am posting one of the net; hmm somehow the image isnt coming on..anyhow thts all folks
go visit the place and invite me when you go ;)

Will this be my life???????

Sometimes you listen to a song for the first time and its something that you can actually understand and you start enjoying it and then the words hit u; and i mean hit you not physically but emotionally and hit you hard. this is one of those; probably the only one that ive ever heard which has put something ive being thinking about seriously for a while into some serious prespective. i just hope that this will be nothing more than a serious deja vu moment or a sign and not turn out to be the story of my life.

Its called Whered you go and its by Fort Minor feat. Holly Brooks and Jonah Sons Matranga

Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don`t understand why you always have to be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps me to not to feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don`t have much to say, so

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I`m stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I`ve had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Please Come back home

You know, the place you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
With candy by the pile
But now you only stop by every once in a while
Yeah I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I`m doing fine and I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I`ll tell you

I want you to know its a little messed up that
I`m stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I`ve had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know its a little messed up that I`m stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting here and waiting and makeing these excuses
For why you`re not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don`t really know what you`ve got till its gone
I guess I`ve had it with you and your career
When you come back I won`t be here and you can say

Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone
Where`d you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you`ve been gone

Please Come back home
Please Come back home
Please Come back home
Please Come back home

Try as u might life will always come back to bite u in the a**

its late but i have had a really good day!!

and so i have to share, i just got home, read a reaaaallllllly long and really nice comment from O, combined with the CD thts just amazing!!i OFFICIALLY love fort minor now especially petrified, thnks O the CD is great. in answer to the questions i havent heard any of the songs you mentioned but ill try to download them, as we discussed today the ronan keating version is a total ad for jumeirah. REVPas and student CP hahahaha...lol :)
so wht i did tonight, got together with O, S and L went for dinner to fudo, great service, good food. then went to lotus one which was a dud except for the swings and finally scarletts, my most favorite heroine, whose namesake is a complete DUD..the music wasnt good and there were no free tables, but its the company tht counts and had lots of fun inspite of all tht. on a complete high right now, will look like death warmed over tomorrow morning, so wht new abt that.
gotta go, the beds calling, dont wanna go to work tomorrow, just 6 and a half hours till i have to get up!!!!! :( why oh why do i have to get up tomorrow.. oh yeah and R got back yesterday, just keeps getting better and better..

anyhoo
good night to who evers up..

Ranting in ....3...2...1

ok so i havent said anything in almost a month so this is going to be long, long, long. it is also going to be full of typos coz i so dont feel like checking anything. this week has been eventful, found out some ppl think of my dept as the dungeon and are also unfortunate enough to be stuck in it. i mean seriuosly its only the boss tht you allow to make you miserable, coz there isnt anyone else to bother you. so dont take things so seriously, i mean please let me live in the office, and by live i mean live and peacefully coexist. coz living is wht ihave been doing lately, in the office that is. two nights in a row i have come back at 10 pm. imagine staring at excel worksheets from 9am to 10 pm. arghhhhhhhhhhh. and its not just me , no one bloody leaves the office to go home.
went to the Bahri bar in mina salam today with the boss, her treat, and had a fab 1 and a half hr. the place was great adn the music was fantastic.
my latest music obsessions are iris-goo goo dolls, big yellow taxi-counting crows, cant fight the moonlight-leann rimes
girly i know, coz i am one
so what more, except work, oh yeah, o's college masla solved will inshallah be seeing him off to malaysia in june :) but we will all miss him, alot! found out that the bloody, graduation gown, which we have to buy, cost bloody aed 275, for something which will rot for life in the closet. wht the f**k! cant we atleast pretend to be in a normal college where students go and not the likes of paris hilton, tht combined with the ball dress, shoes and haircut will result in the most expensive night in my life. and i am sure in two years time i will have to paying double the cost. seriously the academy motto should be join now for a career at the top so you can paying back your debts. so whts more, yup just got a msg from the other O, who is leaving for Jordan. have a good time man and keep me updated.
thts it i guess so when i next get the urge to vent it will all be here.
listening to: we are the champions-queen
reading: little women-pathetic, i know, but ive got no choice!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

EVIL, EVIL, EVIL BLOGGER

OH MY GOD!! SERIOUSLY!! am i dumb or just misdirected that i wanted to make a new blog template from scratch. not only was i so not able to do that coz i wanted it to look like a design student had done it but i wasnt even able to edit my current template. so with deep remorse, regret and a severe and now throbbing back ache as well as stomach ache developed from not eating dinner till now, i now officially GIVE UP.
i do such moronic things sometimes. and the above the the simplest example. who am i to change something when it doesnot want to be changed. how can i when it is not bloody meant to be. i so wanted to do a nice template but seriously the help websites need to be translated for me. maana i am not a computer geek but i am not a complete dodo either. but in this instance i so compltely proved my self wrong.
on top of it all i so not want to go to work tomorrow. i just bloody dont. so there.
getting back to the template rants, i made out the whole format to edit my links and to add my fav sites but it seems blogger has edited those parts out so now i cant do that either. dont ask me how or why i would believe a soft ware to be against me but i swear it is. or i just cant see anything now.
on a happier note, yes happier i spoke to everyone today and even got visited. jab bhi allah deta hai to chapad phad kai. agar thoda thoda deeday to i guess i would be more satisfied but even so thank you god. it was like suddenly my prayers were answered.
Anju babe, here are some blogs you might enjoy reading coz i read them everyday. have to put them in this way instead of the nice list i had created. sighhhhhh.... a tear falling slowly (not literally though, im still the cold bitch), so here goes sobia- she is the chick with the punju mil, bee amma -whose shituation you will identify with, rehtwo-who i started reading today but the title is fantastico, diligent candy-what can i say, ghazal's-my friend in pak, and finally osama's and omar's who i do enjoy reading when they POST!!
i think this is more than enough coz if i keep on going and i can i will be waken up by my boos in the morning-just like today.
and please put in a comment if you are reading, anyone can not just bloggers, coz id like to know who reads my rubbish.
sleepy time..bye

completely hopeless and clueless

i am so wishing changing a template was as easy as excel. have been working on it so much nowadays am sick of it and by it i mean excel. i tried to change the blog using sobia's advice here but it doesnt seem to be working. i have just left it at the first step having been able to change the back ground but not the columns and now it is left at the first step which was to change the template to minima black. not only tht for for some WIERD ASS reason my index is stuck at the bottom of the page. ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! just now discovered by inability to type "the" keep writing "teh" for some reason. anyhoo my back is now broken, wishing i was at home so some one could give me a massage but no two more days. until then cribby me!!
must sleep now coz i have to wake up at 7:15 tomorrow so that i can keep snoozing the mobile for 45-50 mins until i know that i dont wake up then i will have to walk to work in the bloody heat. great motivation eh...!! just posting now no time or motivation to splee chack, me lard forgive me.
hehehehehhe
completely delusional..................

Hmmmmm.

a truly accurate picture of the world we live in.

1 day left...and then back to the grind

so now thts its coming to an end i wish i could extend my lazy days, the days which start with my mother's voice telling me is high time to get up and then switching on the tv in bed to watch yet another rerun of the Gilmore Girls. now its just tomorrow after which i will head of to my first day as a corporate intern. and with it i will fly away from the nest for two months and am taking enough stuff with me to suffice for a year. but thts me. it also means that now i will miss home like crazy and will go to bed on an empty stomach just cause i dont feel like food and not cause there's nothing to eat cause where food is concerned there is always plenty. mama makes sure of tht. continuously.
hopefully work will be satisfactory and they will treat me like a normal human being, able enough to carry out small tasks adequately and independently and not like some imbecile who just stepped out of kindergarten!

DEAN'S LIST!!!!!

YAHOOOOOOOOOO!!! HURRAAYYYYYYYY!!! although i got my result a couple of days back did not get the chance to post it. am so happy. i thought all my exams went crappy but actually my gpa went up a tiny, little bit. even though i am estatic! cause this means three semesters in a row on the list i.e. three out of the four taken so far. gpa attained 3.39 for the semester and cumulative 3.35.
YES,YES,YES..!!!

And boredom sets in...

unbelieveably its only been a week since i got done from college and already i feel like it has been ages. i am so incredibly bored!! its too hot to do anything, cant go anywhere in the afternoon unless i want to end up smelling like a dead racoon, sick of tv coz there's never anything on, read every book in the house more times than i care to mention, watched parts of desparate housewives season 2, AGAIN! watched most of the dvd's again. any one got any ideas??
six days and counting to start of internship...

Finished, done, over….hello LIFE!!

i am finally done with my exams the last having finished 6 hours and twenty minutes before. i am so relieved!! not only did my exams finish but with them my second last semester. now just eight months more and i will be a graduate. Scary yet exciting all the same. i will finally be earning something rather than just paying.
hello vacations, life and all that comes with it i.e. movies, books-fiction of course, and long, lazy summer afternoons spent doing absolutely nothing and not to forget shopping in the summer sales!!
here's to fun!!!!! and freedom!! :)

Stats and the flu

its not fair!!!
that i get the flu two days before i finish exams
that i have to choose between medicine or studying
that i have to study stats and organizational behaviour in a row
that i have to stay on the dean's list
that the whole world gets to doze during all hours of the day while i cant do it for another two days
and that try as i might i cant seem to study anything
11 hrs and counting till t-time i.e stats exam

good luck to me:( and to getting even a b on this exam!! :[

Proud to be a DESI!!!

I got this message as an email. it lists the qualities of "desi's". Read and decide for yourself!!

• When you tell your parents you got 98%, and they ask you what happened to the other two percent.
• There is a sale on any item, you buy 100 of them.
• You make tea in a saucepan.
• You never buy bin bags, but use your saved grocery bags for it.
• You put your clothes in suitcases instead of wardrobes.
• You have a 'Singer Brother' sewing machine at home.
• Your mother has a minor disagreement with her sister and doesn't talk to her for ten years.
• You call an older person you've never met before "uncle".
• You hide everything from your parents.
• Your mother does everything for you if you are male.
• You do all the housework and cooking if you are female.
• Your relatives alone could populate a small city.
• Everyone is a family friend.
• Everyone always called you for help on homework.
• You study law, medicine or engineering at university.
• You were thick so you studied computer science or business instead.
• You know no one who has studied music.
• You went to a university as far away from home as possible.
• You still came back home to live with your parents after you had finished.
• Your best friend got married at the age of 18.
• You like the meat well done.
• You eat onions with everything.
• You use chili sauce instead of tomato ketchup.
• You fight over who pays the dinner bill.
• You say you hate Indian films/songs but secretly watch/hear them.
• You avoid public places when with a member of the opposite sex, especially if there is an acquaintance within a 250 miles radius.
• You always say "open the light" instead of "turn the light on".
• You secure your baggage with a rope.
• You're walking out of customs with your trolley at the airport and you see all twenty-five members of your family who have come to pick you up.
• You get very upset when airlines refuse to accept your luggage which is just 80 lbs. overweight.
• You go back to your parents' country and people treat you like a member of the royal family.
• You ask your dad a simple question and he tells you story of how he had to walk miles barefoot just to get to school.
• Your Dad drives a Nissan.
• You're rich so he drives a Mercedes.
• You are ALWAYS taking off and putting on your shoes wherever you go.
• When you were little you always wondered why your English friends waited until after breakfast to brush their teeth when you did it first thing in the morning.
• To your English friends, oil is used purely for cooking and not as a grooming aid.
• Your parents have nicknames but only because people they work with just stop when trying to read their names.
• You have annoying nicknames like Chotu or Chicku.
  Your parents call all your friends "Beta" (son/daughter).
• Your mother measures wealth in gold and diamonds.
• Your parents drink 3 cups of tea a day.
• Your parents compare you to all of their friends' kids.
• At least once a week your mom says, "I want to go to India/Pakistan".
• No one ever seems to call ahead of time to say they are coming over for a visit.
• Your parents worry what other people will think if you're not going to be a doctor/ engineer.
• You're parent's always say while shopping abroad, "It's cheaper in India/Pakistan".

FBISE we showed ya!!!!

My sister's results came out the 28th of june. she had appeared for her grade 10 board exam and she came out with an 83%!!!!! tht was an extremenly pleasant surprize. i have not known any one normal to get that kind of marks and she did. and by normal i mean people who live their lives, watch tv, read, listen to music and waste a bit of time too rather than just studying compulsively all year long. i was so proud, msging everyone i could think of and am still telling every one, i havent told yet, about it.
bloody amazing!!!!!

And finally, ladies and gentlemen

i was constantly trying to get titles for my posts, thought something was wrong witht he template (and didnt like the first one alot either) so changed it thrice and finally saw that i had set the option to no titles! smacked myself on the head and got my beloved titles!! :)
happy, happy, happy...

congratulations and celebrations, dear karachi mutant!!!

today my bhiayya took his first steps towards getting a driver's licence. he passed his parking test!!!!!! i'm so happy

today is turning out to be a very good day, i nearly signed my contract for the job im starting this summer; although its just an internship its a gr8 step towards a real kick ass job next march when i will graduate. as well as this discovered my best friend has a blog. finally someone who can comment on my posts. and what better way to keep up with each other. have a nice day G :) hopefullly will see you soon, inshallah next year.

Bloggers, bloggers, bloggers...

Have been reading blogs all afternoon instead of reading for my accounting exam. found some people with wild ideas and some who lead the most exciting lives, some i could not belive have not been blocked yet. i wouldnt be surprized if they were blocked tomorrow. afterall etisalat constantly blocks harmless as well extremely usefull sites (Skype anyone....) A sadistic hobby... depriving people of their poison.
feel like strangling my brother for introducing me to this madness.. but what to do
diligent candy, you go grl and keep blogging :)

euphoric...estatic

that perfectly describes my state of mind right now. no college for 4 whole dayssss....... :) bliss, heaven, bed, movies.................................
although im not that lucky with my finals two weeks away i have to start slaving away, start opening books not touched as yet and memorize stuff i wont be able to recall a week after i finish exams.
coz i stubbornly want to maintain my place on the dean's list a hope diminishing with every stats exam lets hope i feel as determined when i'm wrting the exams to check the bloody thing once over and prevent from leaving stupid mistakes behind coz i want to escape to the sunshine as soon as i finish writing the last sentence.
my next and last semester is looking scarier by the minute as i just finished choosing my electives. i have a foreboding feeling tht i just screwed up my life by choosing finance and economics when i already had as compulsories like human resources and services operations. here's hoping that i prove myself wrong. tht added to the fact that im working the entire summer, next year doesnt look as rosy now as i expected before..

more on my miserable exsistance later.

Me....... the marvel or mystery

hi all....
this being the first day I have ever read a blog, let me say I dont know shit about what im doing. read some postings, liked them decided to jump right into the thick of things. what can I say, its a personality malfunction I cant keep in check. I hope this not one of those things which once started loses all lusture..
what more is there.. let me say some bout me. im a student, currently, looking forward to the next eight months in which I will finally be one no moreee yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaahhh!! :) I am in one of those obscure fields which everyone misunderstands and makes into the most obvious professions. I'm doing hospitality and tourism and you guessed it.... it has nothing whatso ever to do with hospitals, the first question everyone asks. i hate traffic and look desperately forward to day I get my driver's license and car coz going to Jumeirah from sharjah everyday is like going to hell and back all in one day. i'm thinking of designating Dubai as my official residence as I spend all my waking hours here and only go home to eat and sleep. AHH sleep how I miss thee....
thts it for now, more from fickle me later.

Au Revoir!!